I'm finally beginning to believe that people only accept they love they think they deserve. And also that people look for love in which would most benefit them. And it's really changing my views and makes me really wonder that if someone tells me they love me, if they do at all, and if so, for the right reasons. I also wonder whether we do this ( Read more... )

I really dont understand what is wrong with me. I could have everything I ever wanted, my life be the way I've always thought it should be and it still doesnt seem right. I still find little imperfections which I cannot accept. I also dont understand how when I'm falling and really need someone to come and save me, I'll be so alone. No one stood up ( Read more... )

I've decided that from now on, I am only going to post when I feel I have something meaningful or important to say. No more of these survey's and random entries about my day. This is going to be my hXc, strightup, no bullshit journal. Probably 90% of it will be about love, relationships, and emotions... but hey, people love to read about that. I ( Read more... )

I havent found anything interesting to write about recently. Days are very repetative and hackneyed, though they are going quite fast. We're already done with a month of school. Its actually pretty crazy. I'm looking forward to a few things in October including COPE weekends, band competitions [especially at Syracuse], homecoming, sweet 16's and ( Read more... )

xcrestfallenxx: you are perfect ( Read more... )

001. When's the last time you ran?: yesterday, so I wouldnt get completely soaked in the rain ( Read more... )

Cool Facts About Me ( Read more... )

I think I'm going out for Drum Major next year.

So today was pretty interesting. Last night I only went to sleep around 2am because I was at the movies at the Broadway Mall with Cristina till late. I had to wake up at 7am this morning to go to volleyball pratice till 9:30 and then band at 10:30 to 12. I got home and took a shower because I felt so gross after practice. Then I went to the movies ( Read more... )

You know, for all the advice on love, life, and relationships; I think its my turn to get some because I really just dont know what to think or do anymore. My life is a whirlwind of everything. I dont think I can handle it all anymore. I feel like a machine. You would never know because everything on the outside looks fine, like I have the perfect ( Read more... )