I'm never gonna be good enough for you

[brokentoystar]

So recently my dad has been on my mind. I guess I'll explain what's happened between us to lessen the confusion.

My parents seperated the day before Easter of my 8th grade year. I had an idea that it was coming, my mom was acting really weird and distant, but it still broke my heart. My parents always faught, but I never saw them apart. That night

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[youmetaxidermy]

Aw. Princess

[brokentoystar]

I really do love that we can relate so much on family issues because it makes it easier for me to talk to you about family stuff.

I know there probably won't be any changes and I should just move on. I hope one day I can, just know all I can do is hope. I kinda wish he could see this so he would kinda understand how I feel, but I know that won't happen.

I love you too babe.

[itsasign]

Man, I'm so sorry your family life has been as tumultuous as I just read. My family hasn't always been the most loving to me or each other as well, so I certainly understand where you're coming from, but while they always threatened separation or divorce, they never went through with it.

In any case, I think you're really strong for still trying to make it work between your dad and you when it seems almost clear that your dad is not putting in nearly as much effort. You will certainly be a better person for putting yourself in the harder situation instead of running away and hopefully in the future you will get what you deserve by the way of love whether it be from him or from someone else who realizes you for what you are and your importance here.

[brokentoystar]

Your comment really helped to cheer me up a bit, in some weird way.
I think what hurts the most is I'm the only blood relative my dad has left, and look how he's treating me. Because of everything I've gone through with him, I've ended up becoming a completely different person. I'm not saying thats bad, if anything it's taught me more about how people really are. It really helps knowing that I'm no alone in dealing with difficult families.

[tangerine]

I'm so sorry about that. I wish my parents split up because my dad and mom fight all the time, but they just won't. They "don't believe in divorce" and it's taking its toll on me because I still live in the house and have to deal with their bickering.

But I'm sure if they split up when I was younger I'd be mad too. And I'm sure my dad would treat me the same. *hugs*

[brokentoystar]

once my parents seperated, i thought the bickering would stop, but it kept going. Sorry about your situation, I totally have been there. *hugs*

[angiewavesgbye]

Oh, love =(. This made me so incredibly sad, I can't even begin to tell you. Be that as it may: Have you considered just not going there at all? Maybe after 5 or 6 months of not hearing from you period- he'll understand his loss.

[brokentoystar]

I think this time, I am going to stop going. I was going to try and just deal with it until my 18th birthday, which is only three months away, but I've just been hurt so much. I don't think I could do it even if I wanted to.