My heart has stopped i feel as though im in an never ending pit
i just lay in my bed and wish that i could be my tears,
i wish that i could lay on the floor and just melt into the cracks in the wood
that i could just be gone for a moment
that this pain would end

I dont want to be here anymore, not here In northcarolina just not here in general. I want to be wipred out of existence forgotten I dont want anyone to know me I dont want anyone to wonder what happend to me i just want to be gone. I want to never have existed. No trace of me. I hate my mother

i dont think jarrett and i are working out anymore. i love him and i dont want to be without him but its just not working out =[

i love my dad, I hate how hes so lonely all the time, more so then i am, and theres only room for one lonely person in this house
this was not the experience i was hoping for but its better then nothing

homesick but for what i amm not sure

Im sitting in ambers room watching everyone working on their paper rama projects and trying to cross my legs discreatly withough showing the HUGE hole in my crotch of my jeans<3

i wish people in glen cove tried to keep our friendship going as much as i try to. i miss them so much obviously i found them better friends then i think they thoguht i was. oh well il continue to try to keep intouch but im not going to worry abut it if they dont keep intouch with me. i bearly talk to sam and daryl and shuana and christian anymore ( Read more... )

i really think alot of people should kill themselves becuase they are fucking just dumb. Like I dont really care if people dont like me because some personalities are just not compatible. And I mean you can still be friendly to the person but when people dont like you for no reason thats when they are the fucked up ones. whatever not my problem its

Im single again. I didnt want this to end. He truely was the best thing that ever happend to me. But at the rate we were going we were tairing each other apart.
Il servive I always find away to

my dads cheating and seeing that woman (little side note my mom is wayyy cooler then that women she lives alone and has michanical birds ummm hello umm whats so sexy about that!)is taking its toll ( Read more... )