Still not in the vacation mode. But I will get there. Today I did very little, just shopping and cooking. But... I seriously cooked, with like, ingredients and everything! Got batteries for my smoke detectors and flashlight. But that is it for usefull things.

I do plan on cleaning at least my kitchen. Because ew.

The fire on wednesday hit me harder than I thought at first. I guess it's the idea that my safety zone isn't that safe at all ( Read more... )

fuck! We just had a fire in the building. Everything turned out okay, but fuck! Yesterday I heard a firealarm going off, but who ever it was turned it off. So when I heard it today I didn't think anything of it. It was coming from upstairs and I could hear their tv and them walking around. So I figured everything was okay. So went to bed with my ( Read more... )

It shocks me how I still feel about myself. How low my self esteem still is. It has gotten better, but mostly in my head. Deep down I still have enormous doubts.

This has been a hard year, work wise. And since work has been the biggest part of my life for the last 10 years that means life has been hard ( Read more... )

Malou has fleas. I shit you not, I've never seen them on her before EVER. She loves it when I brish and comb her fur, so I would have known if she had them before.

Oh, and for the first time EVER I had to stop running because of the celiacs kicking off. So now my ehm...well everything hurts and I feel like I'm crawling with fleas. Yuck.

Today, I am only going to do my job. Nothing less, but nothing more either. No perfectionism. No extra steps. I'm going to see how that feels.

Because, if I'm afraid they want robots in stead of people, why pretend to be a robot?

Look below this line for the fucks I give.

but an omission is a lie too. Aparently, I could have solved Window's identity crisis by using the code...that...is...on...the...sticker...on my pc. Yeah, we laughed. Good times were had.

The other problem was my dvd drive. So they replaced that. Not something I could have done myself...

SO I AM BACK! Never left, but I felt like being dramatic!

So If I disappear, that is why :)