Silver linings and other myths

[brightstarmara]

This is not my usual type of post. I've been working on this for a few days, but as much as I edit it, I can't get it perfect. For some reason, it just won't come out right. So this will stay like me; flawed, with lots of mistakes, but out there none the less

Comments

[beautiful_hooch]

Oh dear...I was in that state for a long time. I got out of it though. But it did take a long time. I thought that I was never going to get out of it. But my best friend Lauren kept working at me and so did my parents (ones I'm living with). And when I finaly let them in and was able, it went away. I was so greatful because I thought I wasn't going to have a life. I think one of the reasons I got into being so depressed was becasue of all the thoughts about my birthparents and ever seeing them again or even meeting them ever. On top of that I've got A.D.H.D (laughs) doesn't bother me though, but whenever I'm getting off my meds or getting back on it I become depressed but not as much anymore because I got help and I just try not to think of negitave things. I try to think of BANA or someone like that heh. But be strong, WE LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!!! If you ever need tips or help on that stuff let me know. I'd be glad to help in anyway possible. I know how hard life can be if you've got this problem it's why I love helping people like

[brightstarmara]

Only mean spirited people piss me off enough to kick them out. I don't see that happening with you LOL!

Meds are sooooo tricky. I know in the US pills are given easier and therefor quickly seen as an easy fix. But it takes forever to get the right ones and to get the doses right. *Roles eyes*.

Sometimes life just throws you nothing but curveballs. And I don't always duck in time, hahaha. But I've been here before and always managed to get back out. I'm still gonna try and explain it better. I should be able to do that.

Any time you want to tell me anything, go for it! I've got email at yahoo too, so don't even hesitate.

Love, Isis

[trulynetty]

I'll be the first to admit, I don't know what depression is or feels like because I am a lucky one in that I have never had to experience it. Sure I've been down and out, I've plunged into my darkness for days on end and have come out, a little raw, but for the most part, together. But I truly don't know what depression FEELS like. Hooch, your words are exactly what I would hope anyone who has and fought depression would sound like. If there is one thing I do know is the only way to get through anything in life is with people. People that are around you and your strongest allies are you family and friends. How can you go alone? You can't. Even I know when to ask for help, even I know when I have fought too hard and too alone for long enough.
Your words are inspiration Hooch.
Isis....good for you for opening up. You know I agree with Hooch. Lean on the family, they are what will pull you through.

[brightstarmara]

It is like being sad at cell level. Every cell in your body is telling you to hide, to protect yourself, to build walls higher.

And it sort of feels like there are ropes and chains tied to each and every one of those cells, attached to the ground, keeping you in place. Getting out of bed becomes this monumental task.

But, I have read somewhere (the book is still packed in movingboxes I think, hihihi) that depression has a lot of creative power. Every time you fall apart and manage to stick the pieces back, you become stronger. I know it works that way for me.

Letting family in is essential. Support is important. But in the end, no matter how much help you get, you are alone. You are the only one who can really make changes, but they start small. The goals you set are very different than those of others. Most of the time they are lower, because things people just do as an every day thing are huge mountains to climb.