Silver linings and other myths

[brightstarmara]

This is not my usual type of post. I've been working on this for a few days, but as much as I edit it, I can't get it perfect. For some reason, it just won't come out right. So this will stay like me; flawed, with lots of mistakes, but out there none the less

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[beautiful_hooch]

Oh dear...I was in that state for a long time. I got out of it though. But it did take a long time. I thought that I was never going to get out of it. But my best friend Lauren kept working at me and so did my parents (ones I'm living with). And when I finaly let them in and was able, it went away. I was so greatful because I thought I wasn't going to have a life. I think one of the reasons I got into being so depressed was becasue of all the thoughts about my birthparents and ever seeing them again or even meeting them ever. On top of that I've got A.D.H.D (laughs) doesn't bother me though, but whenever I'm getting off my meds or getting back on it I become depressed but not as much anymore because I got help and I just try not to think of negitave things. I try to think of BANA or someone like that heh. But be strong, WE LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!!! If you ever need tips or help on that stuff let me know. I'd be glad to help in anyway possible. I know how hard life can be if you've got this problem it's why I love helping people like

[brightstarmara]

Only mean spirited people piss me off enough to kick them out. I don't see that happening with you LOL!

Meds are sooooo tricky. I know in the US pills are given easier and therefor quickly seen as an easy fix. But it takes forever to get the right ones and to get the doses right. *Roles eyes*.

Sometimes life just throws you nothing but curveballs. And I don't always duck in time, hahaha. But I've been here before and always managed to get back out. I'm still gonna try and explain it better. I should be able to do that.

Any time you want to tell me anything, go for it! I've got email at yahoo too, so don't even hesitate.

Love, Isis

[trulynetty]

I'll be the first to admit, I don't know what depression is or feels like because I am a lucky one in that I have never had to experience it. Sure I've been down and out, I've plunged into my darkness for days on end and have come out, a little raw, but for the most part, together. But I truly don't know what depression FEELS like. Hooch, your words are exactly what I would hope anyone who has and fought depression would sound like. If there is one thing I do know is the only way to get through anything in life is with people. People that are around you and your strongest allies are you family and friends. How can you go alone? You can't. Even I know when to ask for help, even I know when I have fought too hard and too alone for long enough.
Your words are inspiration Hooch.
Isis....good for you for opening up. You know I agree with Hooch. Lean on the family, they are what will pull you through.

[brightstarmara]

It is like being sad at cell level. Every cell in your body is telling you to hide, to protect yourself, to build walls higher.

And it sort of feels like there are ropes and chains tied to each and every one of those cells, attached to the ground, keeping you in place. Getting out of bed becomes this monumental task.

But, I have read somewhere (the book is still packed in movingboxes I think, hihihi) that depression has a lot of creative power. Every time you fall apart and manage to stick the pieces back, you become stronger. I know it works that way for me.

Letting family in is essential. Support is important. But in the end, no matter how much help you get, you are alone. You are the only one who can really make changes, but they start small. The goals you set are very different than those of others. Most of the time they are lower, because things people just do as an every day thing are huge mountains to climb.

[beautiful_hooch]

Thank you trulynetty. *hugs* your words and mine help her very much.

Hooch ;)

[brightstarmara]

;). They do!

[beautiful_hooch]

Oh, I'M SO GLAD, are you doing better?

Hooch ;)

[brightstarmara]

Well, it is a long road ahead. And both my tires are flat. OMG, that was one cheesy rhyme...Forgive me, it is one in the morning here.

It is gonna take time, but at least this time around I know what I am fighting. I am not as scared as I was before.

Hope you are having a good day, sweety!

Isis

[beautiful_hooch]

Yes it is, and sometimes it can be very hard to find your way. But that's why you've got us!!! And you just need to take it step by step a little bit, and you'll get there. It's how I did. I hope all it going well for you. And thanks I'm having a good day so far I guess, lol. It's 1:45 AM over here.

Hooch ;)

[beautiful_hooch]

*huggles* And yes the meds is, sometimes I forget to take it lol. And if I don't I'll be pretty hyeper lol. OH, and what's your yahoo?

Hooch ;)

[brightstarmara]

My yahoo is brightstarmara@yahoo.com ;). It's my Bana-Rama addy.

Yeah, it shocks me sometimes how people think that taking a few pills will solve the problem. It shows ignorence, but luckily there are still people out there who ask questions if they have no clue in stead of just judging.

I have to say that I am happy nobody takes Tom Cruise seriously anymore anyway. Brooke Shields should have send him some books and psychiatry. Or pay for him to go back to school....

People like him make me angry, but at the same time I feel bad for him. Imagine going from promissing actor (he killed as Lestat) to babbling moron.

Isis

[beautiful_hooch]

Thanks, and I couldn't agree with you more about MR. CRUISE, he's a mess, and in some way I do feel sorry for him LMAO. Take care of your self mate. *huggles* expect some mail mate.

Hooch ;)

[brightstarmara]

The only good thing about Cruise was his Lestat. I hope people don't listen to him. My Karma is gonna suffer here, but you would almost want him to feel this for a week...

I am soooooo taking care of myself. Luckily, I have been here before and I know how to fix it. Man, it is so hard when you have never gone through it and it hits you! Just have to keep doing what my head and heart tell me. And focussing on my friends and family.

Going to keep trying putting it into words. It is soooo frustrating not to be able to hit the nail on the head the first try! Hopefully I will get a creative spark back too...

Love to hear from ya Hooch!

[beautiful_hooch]

Once more I would have to say the same about Cruise. And yesh, I hope that you'll still be able to keep going and pull through. *huggles* Love ya always. And ya, sorry I'll have to send it off today lol

Hooch ;)

[brightstarmara]

Cruise was a genius before he went loopy. Makes me think wha happened dude? I wonder why he choose to become a follower of a religion started by a Sci-Fi writer... Although I have to say; Terry Prachett, if you start a cult, I am soooooo there...

I have no doubt that I'm gonna be fine. It just takes a long time and while you are in the middle of it, you're just no fun. Makes me wish I could call doctor Bana to the rescue. Sort of like 911-dial-a-Bana, hahahaha

What is really cool though is that I just got two emails from a magazine I send a letter into. It is a magazine for celiacs and I send a letter in about people who keep having problems even on the glutenfree diet. I just got two responses from people who read my letter and found out they were not alone! So sharing your story works! Yaya!

Wow, it is almost 1 in the morning here...gotta love insomnia...

Thank you for your support. If you ever need the favor returned, I am here! With gallows -humor, but here none the less!

[beautiful_hooch]

LMAO, ya I wondered what had happend to him as well...too bad for him eh? lol, darn there goes my Canadian acent. And yesh DR. BANA to the rescue heh. He's always able to help us with just being sexy and being himself lol. And its' not a problem and thank you for your support, its very helpful to me at times. *huggles* have a good one.

Hooch ;)