horrible week

[brightfeather]

I'm tired. I woke up Wednesday to one of the Aspies screaming at me--my brother. I know it's mostly the Aspergers talking, but it's exceedingly hard to deal with when you're being told how stupid and selfish you are. (Looking in a mirror, much? Everything he accuses me of, is in himself. I try to be patient, but it's hard.)

Was told I'm delusional

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[rayma3]

You sound like you need a hug! So here is an Internet hug! (((Hug)))

[brightfeather]

thank you. I really needed that.

[darkrefuge]

Awww sweetie it makes me sad that you're going through this.
I know it's not easy, or fair... and you're pretty young to have to deal with all this.
I know you feel obligated to help out your family... believe me I wrestle with this issue myself, sometimes daily. Sometimes you just have to do something for YOU. Even if it's giving yourself a "day off" to do what feeds YOUR soul.

Eric Benet - Hurricane:
http://youtu.be/PQJiKSLVIb4

[brightfeather]

Writing fanfic and the REAL children are what's keeping me sane. Though even that gets thrown in my face. Apparently, I should be able to make money at it, so that he can move out, and I'm selfish for having a hobby that doesn't directly benefit him. This is the same person who complains bitterly about the $450/month that he's paying for the TV, internet, and electricity. He doesn't get that if he lived on his own, he would have NO money at all, because rent alone would eat up everything he makes! (To which he says I have no concept of reality. It's a landlord's market in our area and even one bedroom apartments are horrifically expensive.) He ditches his chores at every opportunity and screams at me when I remind him because in his mind, he shouldn't have to do anything other than go to work (which plays into his obsessions or he couldn't keep the job. He's applying for better paying positions and I seriously doubt he'll ever get anything better.) and then come home an play with his other obsessions. Apparently, I'm also selfish for

[rayma3]

Have YOU looked into respite care? I don't know a lot/much about it but it sounds like you need a break. Respite care might be able to help. You are a full time caregiver to one or two people who need some sort of care 24/7. Again hugs!

[ladyniko]

You need help. Don't know how much mental health funding your area gets but look into it to get something lined up for your bros and like was stated above, respite care for yourself.