I give. I'm so lonely.

Life could be a lot worse. But right now I am sinking into major depression, so its hard to see how much worse it could be. I've decided I've beat the odds I was given. I probably should have committed suicide years ago, and I am glad I didn't. I've had some really great times over the last few years that I would have missed out on. But I am ( Read more... )

I don't know who I've become.

I almost completely forgot about Livejournal. Amazingly I remembered my password and was able to re-enter my past. As for the present, not much has changed. I still can't get a break, and I continue to watch things fall apart without making a change. I believe that qualifies me as crazy. I am moving soon, which I am finding hard to break to my ( Read more... )

Check this out. Thanx. Never forget...

http://www.rememberjill.com/

I've been sick a lot lately, well, like every day all day, most of the time. I've gotten to where I can pretty much make it through a day without even noticing my stomach pain anymore. And now that I can do that of course I would start feeling more pain else where. Now I am getting pains all up my right shoulder and into my head, and in my lower ( Read more... )

So, I moved out of my moms. So far so good. I enjoy the family I am living with, they are all incredible people. Everyone tried talking me out of moving here, but I'm happy, and other people are starting to get used to it. I miss Bre though, and our late nights at my moms, making corn dogs dance on the counter tops. God I miss that. I miss ( Read more... )

I gots me a tattoo today. Its beautiful. I changed my mind last minute and got something different in my star. Its not a lame star, and it has meaning, so shut the fuck up if you are gonna tell me it is boring. I only have one more day here, I'm sad its over. I'm pissed off that I was sick my first 4 days here, its totally my luck though. But ( Read more... )

Well, I made it to Seattle, but I've been sick the entire time I've been here. Like, vomit sick. It pretty much sucks hardcore. I am gonna try and find a clinic today to go to, but its gonna cost me. We will see. I just need to get this fixed, I can't stay sick like this. Alright, I need to go...can't sit for too long.

later...

I think everyone would be amazed at how much I'm slipping. I don't know what happened. Something snapped on Tuesday, and I can't seem to regain control. I'm to weak to control the spinning. I'm gonna get some sleep. It will be okay in the morning, everything always looks better at the start of a fresh day.

goodnight, goodnight...