Trance like state brought on by focused attention and conscious channeling of curious/malicious energy... curious to see how far the rabbit hole leads... how much can i bend it before it breaks? Felt the need to bathe flows of release over a close friend, "just let it happen"... almost like a purging of the soul being acted out without me being ( Read more... )

So im 20 years old now working my ass off from 9 to 5, five days a week... And ive completely lost all and any interest or will to keep up with anything internet related... Im to the point right now where i feel as far as human interaction goes, if i cant look you in the eyes, then its not worth my time. Kinda my general mentality of late, no ( Read more... )

Employed... With Cascade Siding and Roof Restoration, cleaning crap off of, at times, rediculously tall roofs and getting paid 10 dollars an hour to do so... its not perfect but its a full time position and a dependable source of income. I think i may be able to get my own place before i turn 20... that would be ideal. Finally things are coming ( Read more... )

Change is a trying and inevitable occurrence in life... But it seems even more of a challenge when you try to consciously bring it about. I think the more we resist change the more resistance we meet when we finally choose to confront it... I think subconsciously ive waited as long as i have because Im now at just the right amount of difficulty ( Read more... )

My mother offered me 150 dollars yesterday to cut my hair and start wearing clothes like an "upright citizen"... Supposedly by doing this my chances of getting hired increase significantly (as i am in the midst of an intensive job search). Here are my thoughts on that ( Read more... )

I wont feed you trite comments to feed your ego ( Read more... )

In the midst of a casual stroll downtown from point "a" to point "b" i noticed a woman dressed in white shawls, a golden trident painted on her forehead, hugging a considerable stack of literature... As i walked onward she approached me and asked "are you an artist?"... i had no idea where this question came from but i responded with a sheepish ( Read more... )

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Im terrified of living a life of mediocrity... And i have to wonder why. This is my life that im living, is it not? Why then would i live a life im not satisfied with? I have to ask... how much power do i give to my weaknesses... how much am i willing to just lay down and watch the days speed past me? Ive got so many ideas floating around in ( Read more... )

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