Signs

[bouldergrrl]

I am not a religious person but I do tend to believe in signs and things that keep pointing themselves out to me.
Of course at a time like this, where I just wish that I had a fairy godmother who could tell me exactly what it is I am supossed to do to live a life that I will enjoy, I'm looking all over the freaking place for signs.  Both my husband

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[starpush]

Its good to write things out and sort them out mentally, especially with the "big things" like moving and employment. I'm sure that if you remain true to what you really want and have faith that things will work at as they're mean to that you'll find yourself in the right place, the right job, and in the right frame of mind. :)

[bouldergrrl]

So true. Yes, writing things out is a tremendous help. It really helps me to sort through it all. Thanks as always!

[itsjustsomegirl]

You sound better :) which is really good. And yeah, I DEFINITELY need to control my emotions too. Today I kind of threw a fit, which I do from time to time. I just feel so helpless sometimes lately... But I think it's just MY problem, not anyone around me causing that. Ugh, but those kind of problems are the hardest to fix. I'll just have to try! Anyway, I like reading your posts :) so keep writing, especially if it helps you check in with yourself! I should write on here more... Maybe I'd feel better? I don't know, it's so hard because I think I'd write more if I truly trusted everyone on my list, but I don't know that I do anymore...

Haha, sorry, that was a lot about me... I promise I meant to just say that you sounded better & that I was happy about that and I'd love to hear more as you come up with more!

[bouldergrrl]

It's nice to know that my posts aren't coming across as me whining or just a mess of information. Thanks for letting me know that you actually enjoy reading them. I always enjoy reading your posts too. I hope your week has gotten better. There are times when you just need to release the emotions. It's natural and while I may be working on controlling mine more now, that's not to say that you should all the time. I don't think it's healthy to keep things bottled up. Thanks again for listening!

[itsjustsomegirl]

Definitely! Yeah, I have to let myself know that bottling up emotion isn't good, too. It's hard not to sometimes... But yeah, never healthy!

Have a great day :)

[bouldergrrl]

Thanks girl! You know what, for the first time in a long time I feel like I have some sort of direction. A purpose. Something productive to work on. But then I second guess myself and think ... what if I feel this way just because it's something new? What if we go through all of this and we do move all the way back to Colorado (oh the thought of the actual move makes me panic- all the packing the driving across country AGAIN!) but I have to believe that I'm feeling this strongly about it all for a reason. We have NOT mentioned this to our families yet so that's a huge weight on my shoulders. But it's not time yet. I don't want to go there until we know for sure.