Another week begins...

[bookgirlwa]

I'm sick of being responsible.  I'm sick of helping others.  I'm often the youngest person in the room at anything I organise - but I'm the one with the most responsibility.  And what I have been doing is being taken over by self-absorbed `positive-thinking' (this is different to naturally happy, positive people - they do not take it personally if

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[miintikwa]

*hug*

I am sorry that you have to stand on your own. That really sucks.

[moggymania]

I agree...but you probably already know that... :-p

Speaking of people with obnoxious attitudes regarding disability, am I the only person that wants to smack a certain irritating twit posting to no_pity with pro-medical-model stuff right now? (She's the one with the prejudiced questionnaire with even more prejudiced answers. Which I am answering, with a lot of pro-social-model and slightly snarky comments, and I hope other people do too. Particularly as compared to me possibly being flamed. ;)

[cheshire_bitten]

Thankyou.

I have recently been diagnosed with depression and have been dealing with a week of "why aren't you smiling" " come on, life isn't that bad!"

Arrrr.

[mintogrubb]

I grew up with being told that I was only worth something if I was ' helpful', if I deneied myself.

It is a trap easy to fall into if
a) you have a religious parent
b) if you have an alcohilic parent.

Me, I had one of each.
Christians often try to deny the pain and suffering that goes on around them, because they are brought up to believe that it is their job to relieve all stresses, solve all problems. At least, I was. To be confronted with a pain you cannot healis a signal that something is wrong.

I think that I have just learned to accept ( to some extent at least) that it is not possible for me to change everything I want changing. pain and sufering exists, even in the lives of those I care about.

I do wish, though, that others would quit trying to force their 'happiness' onto those who are just ot happy for very legitimate reasons. It is a plain case of 'being in denial'.
I only want to say that I sympathise with the OP, and with you, because I can how frustrating it is when people cannot or will not accept you as you are.

[cheshire_bitten]

thankyou sir.

:)

[mintogrubb]

You are welcome.

It would be wonderful, I guess, if you did not feel depressed, but it would be even more wonderful if people could just accept the fact that you should not have to fake cheerfulness for their sakes, and just live with that fact.

[kk1raven]

These women and more who constantly tell me how `negative' I am, because I insist on there being room for our pain and sadness, our abuse and neglect, because I call these things what they are and don't believe that people who do these things to other people, to their children really do love them.

It seems to me that denying your pain and sadness is denying part of your humanity and your very self. You can't just deny whole portions your life experience and make them go away. You can try your best to not let them define everything about your life and take it over, but pretending they don't exist doesn't do you or anyone else any good in my opinion.

I will say though, that I think some people who do some pretty cruel things to their children do love them, and do the cruel things out of misguided thoughts that they are the right thing to do. Loving someone doesn't give you good judgement about what to do. It also doesn't stop you from having mental problems.