I just wrote a very long entry on the subject of my shallowness. But I deleted it. Suffices to say, being constantly reminded of and surrounded by the standards of someone else is very damaging to self esteem, especially when that person is as obsessed as you are with the attractiveness of others. It really makes me feel very, very bad.

Well, I'm waitin' for my Crazy to get off of work, so I can go pick him up and bring him back to this snuggly bed and cuddle with him til everyday life sets in again. But y'know what? After tomorrow... I am free from school, and he is free from school, and we can work our morning Lucas shift then come home and lay in bed and watch Simpsons til we ( Read more... )

Blah blah blah, everything sucked, my whole life sucked, blah blah blah, fuck everyone from my past, blah blah blah. Obviously you're still fucking stuck in that horrible ball-sucking past. Get over it. I hate people who aren't grown up enough to seperate good things from the past from bad things from the past, or who have to try to taint all kinds ( Read more... )

I love how when I call you, you use the voice I should be using and I try to be nice. You sound like I'm wasting your time, and you have that "I'd rather be talking to your dad than you" tone of voice. Hey, that can be arranged, I just figured you'd probably rather hear from me. Silly me, guess I'm just always figurin' wrong. Lesson learned: do it ( Read more... )

It's icky when someone sees something the same way you did (but convinced yourself was no big deal), because it's like affirming your worry. Yea. I wonder if thinking and thinking and thinking and re-thinking things to death is just a girl thing, and that's why I can't help doing it?

Hooray, it's Wednesday and my party is on Sunday!!! I'm WAY psyched. I get to see Alex, and SHE gets to see my apartment. I think it should be way fun. Plus, David, Sherry, Oliver, and my glorious parents. AND Jordan! It is flat out going to be awesome. I love parties. I am so unbelievably happy and in LOVE right now, it's rediculous. Seriously. I ( Read more... )

Last night was weird and filled with internet drama ( Read more... )

I have a headache- a bad one. I wanted to go to MN this weekend but I don't think thats gunna fly. (When I typed weekend, I pronounced it in my head "weekEnd", like the British do. Not out loud, in my head.) Anyway, boo to that- but I just have loads too much stuff to do. Plus work. Boo. Next weekend though, (that time I just said it normally, the ( Read more... )

This guy in the lab totally looks like a Sim. Foooor real. Hair style, glasses, outfit... the works. If this was a costume party I'd totally know what he was. He also looks hot/hippie/gay ( Read more... )

You know, it's so weird to me how much you changed. Like, snap! All-new and[improved?]. I got accused of changing... by you. Accused of lots of things, really. But, when it comes down to it, I am the same as I've always been. Situations are different now, but I have the same goals. The same values. I am the same. But who are you now? I remember the ( Read more... )