what have i done? how could i have been so stupid? to fall for her and everything she lied about. how fucking dumb can i be? all the times she told me she loved me, all the times she made me feel completely happy. all the times we'd be together and say we'd be together forever. all the times id pick her up when she fell back and help her back up to ( Read more... )

every day i look into myself, i think about my little world, i...reflect...on myself and the bullshit i succum myself to every waking moment of my life. and each time its worse. i always thought my life was going to mean more, that it would be more important than this. that i would matter. i was going to make history. people were gonna talk about ( Read more... )

yeah. so, im a terrible friend, a terrible boyfriend, a terrible brother, a terrible son, and a terrible person all around. please someone do me and the rest of the world a favor and kill me.

why? what the hell? who let him leave the party like that? i can think of 100 other people it could have been that would make things actually better, not worse. but it had to be him. i still think its bullshit. it shouldnt have been him ( Read more... )

Homecoming '05. my first homecoming ever and probably my last. it was actually a lot of fun. i never really thought it would be but it was. it was just about as kool, dance-wise, as it was at prom. it sucked only that my best friends werent there. stoner, lindsey, allison, christina, ashton and kathleen, and of course my beautiful christy; but no ( Read more... )

well this has been the longest week ever. but it was kinda cool. band every single day except wednesday, and work, and of course school. fucking A i wont miss that shit. well not too much ( Read more... )

well at least i got 'em out of the way. the SAT's. 5 1/2 hours of sitting quietly taking tests on the most pointless bullshit ive ever seen, with the exception of 2 five minute breaks that we werent even allowed to talk on. the FCAT was more fun than this. if you have the choice to take SAT's or ACT's take the ACT's. i hear its shorter and a little ( Read more... )

i was talking to a friend last night, my best friend actually. and we both agree that life was much kooler 2 years ago. life right now cant get too much worse, but now that ive said that it will ( Read more... )

well, it could be better, but not by much. havent updated in a while. been too busy with work, school, band, christy, and something i never thought id get into...MySpace. its actually pretty kool. but whatever ( Read more... )

so 2 weeks of school past. they both sucked and were kool at the same time. all my classes except advanced placement (god i love how that sounds) music theory. how can music be hard for me!? i mean come on! i had 4 tests last friday and of course our first football game. it was preseason so we didnt have to march it. but we will next week against ( Read more... )