i feel terrible cos i feel as if i only have a journal so i can whine and complain about all the unnecessaries in my life. i will try to be more positive and write down all the wonderful things that should matter most and not just the ugly ( Read more... )

i am thankful for the weekend, i had been feeling drained from this weeks inconvinences. i miss a certain friend in my life, though i will leave names out of it i find myself thinking about him on a daily basis now. i suppose it happens when friendships fade away, but out of all of my friends i find that its him that i cant seem to shake loose from ( Read more... )

at about noon time the weather man on the radio comes on and says this entire week will be 107 and sunny,sunny,sunny. he practically chirps as i imagine big rolling sweatdrops and my annoyance with the lack of shade and clouds in the sky, actually "imagine" isnt the word i am searching for, it has been 107 all week, i am passed imagining, i am ( Read more... )

everything has been so boring in my part of the world. all we do is just wait around for the weather to change. lastnight we backed the car into the driveway and watched an amazing lightening show, this morning the humidity was so thick i felt like a mermaid, & this afternoon we sat on the lawn for a few hours soaking up the cool air before the ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel so terribly drained. i am such a cancer in every way. when my energy is running on low my body just yearns to be home, hidden and tucked away in my tiny pocket of the world. my eyelids are ohsoheavy i cant stand it, but i refuse to let my body cave in to the warm comfort of my bedroom. there are moments when i feel life doesnt ( Read more... )

i dont really know what to say anymore, really. i have a simple happy quiet life, just as i imagined many many many years ago as a wee little girl. i wake up everyday with bright eyes, ready to see something new & the day never leaves me disappointed. my journal may appear quite tiny and soundless, but i promise you my life certainly is not. some ( Read more... )

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unmotivated, yet really happy ( Read more... )

i hate it when im sick. i just shake a lot and then my eyes get teary because im thinking to myself, oh, oh, you are sick., and no one wants to get sick. i laid in bed for hours after work, i fell in and out of dreams, and i believe at one point i dreamt about someone holding me and i was dying because i was sick. i turned off all the lights in the ( Read more... )

whenever i hear music by third eye blind, i suddenly want to get naked and lay out on the grass and feel how cold the wind is over my body. im so strange.