Sep 06, 2008 10:55
i am thankful for the weekend, i had been feeling drained from this weeks inconvinences. i miss a certain friend in my life, though i will leave names out of it i find myself thinking about him on a daily basis now. i suppose it happens when friendships fade away, but out of all of my friends i find that its him that i cant seem to shake loose from my subconscience. its really quite annoying, i thought i had myself trained to just "drop" these kind of people from my life, i was beginning to let myself believe that letting go was getting easier, it's really a slap in the face and a rise in my anxiety level.
i love my job, i hate my "superior". when you realise that the career you picked for yourself isnt working out to par, im sure you become becoming filled with regrets and bitterness, and perhaps she wants me to feel some kind of pity for that, but it makes me just resent her that much more. when will people learn to GET OUT when theyre unhappy?
i watched two kids play house inside a junglegym and i closed my eyes and wished wished wished life could go back to being that carefree for me. a few seconds after opening my eyes the pair asked me if i would like to play with them. ♥ ♥ afterwards i realised that i just need to stop wishing so much and make it happen.