I haven't been on this journal in forever, but I had a dream I didn't want to disclose in my other blogs. First I want to say I am reading a lesbian novel I got from the library (I wonder if the library realized it was lesbian when I requested it - anyway they did order it) and in the novel it's about Civil War time or almost, and these two women ( Read more... )

Do fools ever win?

School is just around the bend of this weekend, yet I still feel relaxed... probably by Saturday and definetely Sunday I will feel it creeping up at me as I will realize I will no longer have one luxuiously lazy day after another. Tomorrow is Friday and that is still my cushion against school for now, but by Saturday, Eeeek ( Read more... )

I saw this comment in a friend of mine's journal ( Read more... )

Tonight I went to dinner at my friend L.'s house and we made hot and sour soup, it was really good, and not as hot as the kind we had at the restaraunt. Then we watched her ABBA concert. She showed me her virtual reality glasses, she can watch tv on them, I didn't know that was possible and I thought she was kidding when she told me about them ( Read more... )

Hey on my birthday after I wrote that post, my parents brought me a carnation and dozen roses! They are beautiful! I just love looking at them and smelling them ( Read more... )

It's my birthday and my parents are coming over real soon, we will go out to Chinese for lunch and then go pick out flannel pajamas later. I will have 2 birthday cakes, black forest and some other chocolate like triple layer or something ( Read more... )

I've been reflecting some more, and what I said in that email wasn't that horrible, I was ending a friendship and that felt like such a harsh thing to me, I normally don't need to write emails that end a friendship. But now that I think of it, she came to a point where she didn't trust me and then I realized if she didn't trust me, I didn't trust ( Read more... )

Yesterday I wrote an email - I was really defensive, at the time it felt right, I was saying my true feelings at the time, yet I ended up feeling regret that I felt the need to be so defensive. What was it about me that felt that need? I was reacting out of fear instead of in love, if I go by ACIM's standards. I felt badly about it, I don't want ( Read more... )

I went for a walk at night. It felt peaceful, even though the wind was blowing.