Why did I do that? What's wrong with me? (Locked from Eva and Jordan)

[bluebeetlerider]

I... I have no idea why I did it.... The way she was talking, it sounded as if they had broken up. Why?! What possessed me to do it? I thought I buried my feelings for her long ago. I simply cannot win. Even when I win, I lose. For example, when the Crogs left, my father died soon afterwards. My life always seems to bring me back to pain and misery

Comments

[assistant_god]

Umm, you are still alive.

What happened?

[bluebeetlerider]

Yes, I am still alive. I know that my physical being could be in worse shape, but my mental health is almost gone.

Jordan hates me and probably will not hesitate to kill me the next time he sees me because Eva thought it would be a good idea to lead me on and kiss me. The way she was talking it sounded as if they had already broken up!

I may be better off if I return home and never have anyhting to do with either of them ever again.

[luvmyshades]

I think I understand where you're coming from. Sometimes bad things just happen, and it seems like the whole universe is against you. That's how I felt after my crash, when I learned I could never fly again. I never felt so alone in my whole life.

But things can get better if you don't give up. You guys are best friends, it would be a shame to lose that just over a fight and stupid mistake. Things won't ever be the same as they were before, but anything's better then this, right?