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Today I smiled and I meant it. I was social and didn't try to run. I had to cry at the end, but the beginning was worth it. It was worth it. -
Life.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I've always had these plans, but now I feel like I can't do it.
I can't do anything and it sucks.
What does normal feel like? -
Something's Gotta Give...Right?
I am completely embarrassed beyond belief. And I usually don't care; I just don't. But I'm here, at university trying to live my life and it hits. It just hit so bad I don't even know what happened ( Read more... ) -
And it went like this...
I'm back...again ( Read more... ) -
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I wasn't gone as long as I wanted. Every time I try to get away everyone pulls me back. I fucking hate it. I hate everyone. I just want to be alone. Always. But whenever I'm alone I need someone to be there for me ( Read more... ) -
This isn't goodbye...
this is see you in time.
I'm tired right now. So tired. I can't think, I can't sleep, I don't want to move.
Everything is stuck in my head and I can't get it out. I just want to be with them.
I love you all. Please don't worry. -
This Kid...
I've had this urge to just stay in bed with the curtains drawn and the blankets pulled over my head. I have no idea why. Sometimes everything seems so pointless. I'll wake up and wish I were still dreaming ( Read more... ) -
Well now...
I guess things were starting to look up today. I'm not at all positive, but this morning was amazing. I woke up late, didn't even shower, messed up a test, but hey, everything was alright. I felt happy? Free. Like I suddenly became light and had nothing to worry about ( Read more... ) -
What the hell.
I don't know what to do. I don't know why I'm fucking typing anything. My head hurts. It hurts from thinking. And here I go crying. I don't even know what's wrong ( Read more... ) -
Blind.
I just keep thinking and thinking and thinking. It's useless, stupid, fucking ridiculous. I'm tired of thinking, I'm tired of caring. I just think sometimes I'm tired of being here. I want to sleep away the hours, drug away memories and pretend I'm normal. I feel so real I must being imagining this ( Read more... )