I hate getting sick!  Damn boyfriend gave me his illness!!  At least I'm not coughing up blood like he was!  I'm going to the doctors tomorrow so I hope I can get some meds in me so I can stop feeling like shit!  I was supposed to go to my friend's fathers day cookout but since I'm coughing up a storm I'm at home.  BLAH ( Read more... )

Well, I haven't written in here in a very long time!!  It's crazy!  I totally forgot about livejournal til I log onto my computer earlier to see I have recieved a comment to one of my entries. I've mainly been on myspace which if you ask me nicely, I'll send you a link to.   A lot of things have transpired since I last wrote in here.  I am now ( Read more... )

So remember the one previous entry where I talked about shit goin down? Well, shit has certainly began to hit the ceiling fan! He told me he loved me...ok, thats cool, not like that could be a problem. Then the one who I was fuckin waitin on tells me the other night that he wants me. WTF?!?!?!!!?!?!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! I was waiting for the ( Read more... )

Yea, last night...not so good. I mean it was good but it's gonna get complicated soon enough, I can tell. I complain and bitch about not having any but when I finally do, it's way more than what I'm expecting. Sorry that this journal entry is so cryptic but I can't reveal it just yet...I don't want to jinx anything.

I wish I could take the pain away. Shit, do I feel like...shit! I seem to be gettin sick all the damn time, low resistance I suppose. My therapist told me to look in the mirror and say one thing positive about myself. I don't kno if I'm actually goin to be doin this shit for a whole week! God, this is gonna be a pain in my ass!!

SHIT!! I sense fuckin trouble comin my way!! Should be interesting!!

I don't kno why I'm so hard on myself, I mean, I kno I'm a (fairly) good person and by no means am I hideous so what the fuck is my problem?! I just look in the mirror and I hate the person looking back at me, more than anything!! I'm just very appreciative of all the friends I have, they keep me grounded and sane (for the time that they're w/ me ( Read more... )

Seriously thinking about stop smoking! Besides the very likely possibilty that I will be fired from work and cigs costs money...I have always tried to stop but when shit gets stressful which it always does, I need to smoke! And shit is definitely getting hectic around here so...we'll see how long this lasts ( Read more... )

I've been diagnosed w/ depression and anxiety. I had to drag my ass to a therapist earlier today and she just confirmed everything I already knew about it. Seems I won't be able to get meds until April 11th cuz I need to be further evaluated by a psych doctor who will see if I'm even more crazy which sucks cuz I need meds! I also think my work ( Read more... )

Have you ever thought you found someone who seems too good to be true? That this person is the one you've been waiting for all your life? He has the looks, personality and everything that you could ever want in someone? Well, what if it was only for a brief moment that he touched your heart and all too soon, the fairytale came to an end w/ a ( Read more... )