I have a secret and it is World of Warcraft.

Cancer scare 2009. It lasted one day. Hardcore antibiotics have soothed my worries. The giant hole in my mouth is gone, the sores are gone. Pain is pretty much gone. Now it's just the soul crushing horror of facing surgery on the 31st ( Read more... )

Bad:
Teeth. Pain. Infection (mouth ears throat).
Terrified. Sad. Exhausted. Starving. Bored.
Moving stress and not actually doing anything.
Stink. Lazy. Need a haircut.
All I want to do is lay in bed and watch Buffy.

Good:
Leaving.

Three and a half hours until the bus. I tried to take a nap and it didn't really work. I have no idea what to do with myself in this time - I already packed and decided not to bother showering until I get to my mom's. She still doesn't know I'm coming (I think). I decided to make it a surprise at the last minute. Which is REALLY last minute since I ( Read more... )

My boss did not respond to my email or call me this afternoon. I have no idea if I can take Friday off or not.

Homehomehome. Busbus. Traintrain.
I need to take Friday off to hop on a bus at 1am. Switch to a train in Santa Barbara. Hang out downtown until someone can pick me up or I learn how to take the trolley to my mom's house.

Watching season two of Buffy instead of doing yoga or anything productive.

Today is the day (only probably not, because I can always find a way to put something off).

ETA: It was the day. What the fuck am I doing with my life?

I'm about to do something incredibly stupid. A huge mistake. I'm so tired of everything.

Northern California kills me ( Read more... )

My hobby: Reading Steinbeck and going into town to see where all this shit went down. They haven't changed any of the street names. This has also involved a trip to Cannery Row where parking is terrible. Locations were harder to pinpoint so I may have just assumed ( Read more... )