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[blonde_viki]

I've just been out for a walk to vote, took the scenic route there and back.  Needed to be outdoors to clear my head, plus with the time I spent on the stepper today, it means I have done about 45 minutes exercise today, which is a bonus.  It's a lovely evening out there, the sun is low in the sky so everywhere is bathed in a semi-orange light and

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[atl]

hug.

[blonde_viki]

Thanks :)

[uglybuffy]

My favourite LJs to read are the ranting ones. And if there was an LJ Ranting Olympics, I think I would win. Much sympathy headed your way. My mother does similar things. Part of the reason I don't want a wedding is because the thought of standing in my dress ready to leave for the ceremony and my mother frowning at me, wondering if "something doesn't look right" would be so crushing. Since summer 2005 I am aware that I look like crap. Naturally I blame Julian!

[blonde_viki]

Thanks for the sympathy :)

I am just adjusting to the fact that my belief that your family were meant to make you feel better about yourself might be a tad (read, lot) misguided.

I'm not even touching the wedding subject - even though I am single my mum has already taken to lecturing me on what i can and can't have for my wedding. I can't see why she thinks it's her decision given I will be paying for it with my own money!

[uglybuffy]

What has your mum decreed that you can't have?

[blonde_viki]

Argh - bearing in mind this is only pseudo-potential-wedding - what hasn't she?? It started with me pointing out a wedding dress and saying I like the style and she harped on for months about how it was too expensive and since then everything I like the look of has been put into the 'waste of money' category - everything from pink champagne to nice invitations. I want my wedding to be special and if I have saved the money, I don't see why I can't have it how i want.

It's bizzarre actually, if she was divorced i might see why she wouldbe reluctant to spend money on a wedding, but she isn't. Go figure.

[uglybuffy]

PS Sometimes you work with idiots. These are people you were put with. Why should you have to get on with them, beyond office small talk and "pass the stapler"?

[blonde_viki]

I actually wrote a bit more about this in a private entry - I think it's just because I see other people getting on together so well here, and I don't get so much as a smile half the time. But i concluded last time it's part of being a trainee, they don't want to get too attached to you because you'll be moving in 6 months anyway. I guess because I'm lonely I am looking for company in the wrong places.

[uglybuffy]

It's the same here - I conclude that the people who my boss made me share an office with are all alike except for me - they like going to Weatherspoons and crappy clubs in Stalybridge and slagging off everyone else in work, and think that me going to gigs and playing in a band is very, very weird.

[lostlorelei]

Poor thing, that does sound rather thoughtless of your mother :/