Forever fighting against everything i cannot change.

This paragraph is the best way i can describe how i feel ( Read more... )

He wakes up every morning before the sun can be bothered to. He is greeted only by the darkness and cold. He works all day knowing that his labor will go unnoticed, unappreciated. this is simply expected. When he retires for the day the sun has left him far behind. finding only the familiar darkness and sharp cold embracing each other, embracing ( Read more... )

You have to learn to love the problems in life.. you have to find comfort in the monotony. or you will never survive.

psh, whatever fuck it.

Lame.
Next week i work both trucks and have to open the morning after each. The kind of schedule that makes a week of your life useless.. There is some stupid meeting on saturday that ive already decided im not going to. i will take a write up this time, i dont care.

This is a way of LIFE!I got the rest of my car parts in today. with any luck ill ( Read more... )

I never used to have anything to write about in here. Nothing worth reading anyway. In a way i still dont but at least im keeping busy and ill tell you all about that, deal?

Birthday?So guess who's turning 21 soon. Yeah you got it. But i am too! The Scott Monhollen drunken birthday bash 2005 is in the planning phases. anyone who would wish to come ( Read more... )

ouch baby.. ouch.

its never that i dont have anything to say.. i just know better than to say it anymore.

things are going to have to change from here on out.

im digging this hole

my place to sleep

my escape to a prison

four feet wide, six feet deep

im digging this hole

my place to hide

while few stand near it

im alone when im inside

deep deep down and deeper still

a hole to empty

a space to fill

the light is fading

my arms grow weak

ill never stop this

until my low reaches its peak

"a stupid poem" - ( Read more... )

I really dont have enough fun anymore. dont get me wrong. its chill to go out and get coffee sometimes. its also cool to watch movies and talk. lately though i want to party. i want to go out have a good time and act stupid. i just want to blow off some steam. its like i walk around all day now with this big bag of steam and everyone looks at me ( Read more... )

saving money is really starting to piss me off. its everything i can do to just not spend any. i need to save up for my car.. and i had the freaking money, i had it twice but things keep coming up. honestly i really havent bought anything in three months or so. i cant tell you how bad i just want to go out and buy a cd, or a fuckin t-shirt. so ill ( Read more... )