frustration.
This paragraph is the best way i can describe how i feel.
how would you feel if you knew for a fact that in six months you will lose both your legs and an arm and there is nothing you can do about it? You would feel horrible. knowing that you have something that bad looming over your head for months and months would be very painful. everything would lose its fun, its color. whatever you have to look forward to until it happens would be drowned out by the realization that soon you will have one arm and no legs.
how would you feel if you knew for a fact that in six months you will lose both your legs and an arm and there is nothing you can do about it? You would feel horrible. knowing that you have something that bad looming over your head for months and months would be very painful. everything would lose its fun, its color. whatever you have to look forward to until it happens would be drowned out by the realization that soon you will have one arm and no legs.