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[rukongaiwhore]

[Ashido had not visited in a while, and Renji didn't know about the other's transfer to the Sixth division under Byakuya. Worried about his friend, who had done so much for him, the redhead was making his way towards the Seireitei border

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/writes too much

[oneremaining]

[Being stripped of his duties by his new taichou, Ashido had expected to have more time on his hands than he knew what to do with. Instead, Byakuya had chosen to keep him busy. Menial tasks. The most basic of basics. Something in him resented it- he was not incompetent. He could do his job. Otherwise, he almost welcomed the distraction

[oneremaining]

...

I'd rather that than... having to watch you die.

I'm sorry.

[rukongaiwhore]

What are ya talkin' about? What's goin' on?!

[oneremaining]

[An awkward pause.]

...He threatened to kill you if I don't do what he asks. That's why you need to stay away. That's why I've not been visiting. I can't let him find you.

[rukongaiwhore]

W-what?! Who?

...and why me? I ain't anythin' special.

[oneremaining]

[Just shakes his head slowly.] ...He knew I was protecting you.

[rukongaiwhore]

Then why didn't ya tell me!?

[oneremaining]

...

Because... I was protecting you.

[rukongaiwhore]

If I'd known... ya have no idea how much I fuckin' missed ya, thinkin' ya were too busy, or hurt, or done with me. Ain't protectin' me, makin' me feel so fuckin' alone.

I don't care 'bout dyin'. Losin' ya is worse.

[oneremaining]

I didn't want you to know. I didn't want you involved. If anything happened to me, I didn't want you to find out.

[Renji's life wasn't the only thing he was trying to protect.]

...I didn't know what else to do.

[rukongaiwhore]

[Grabs the hem of Ashido's shitagi, so hard that his knuckles turn white. He seems ready to hit the other, pissed off... but then the rage fades and he just drops his head to Ashido's shoulder instead.]

Ya can't protect me that way. Ya died, and I didn't know it. Hurt like fuck and made me feel useless when I finally found out.

I can't lose ya again. Not to death or to some fuckin' threat. I need ya.

Selfish, I know. But I do.

[oneremaining]

[He wouldn't have minded if Renji had hit him. At this point, the other could hit him as many times as he wanted and Ashido would simply stand there and take it.]

...It's easier being alone. Or maybe I'm just used to it. Nobody to worry about but yourself. Nobody to fail but yourself. [There's something in the way he wraps his arms around Renji to pull him closer - something just a little too desperate - which belies his words.]

[rukongaiwhore]

Don't we both know that's bullshit, by now?

[They used to think just like that. Both of them. But then...]

Hurts bein' alone.

[oneremaining]

[Oh, it hurt. He'd just forgotten how much it hurt until he'd grown used to the company, then lost it again.]

Mm. I'm sorry.

http://i49.tinypic.com/2yxesuv.jpg look what I found! o_O

[rukongaiwhore]

[This was awkward again, but Renji didn't really care. He didn't want to move, perfectly content to stay where he was.]

Ya gotta tell me who it was, so I can avoid 'em.

Yesss I found that a while ago xD ...I'm amused that that url says "sexy" backwards, though. <.<

[oneremaining]

...It was Aizen. The one who attacked the Seireitei. I knew I didn't stand a chance against him, so... [So he'd done something stupid.]

I'm not sure avoiding him is possible.