i tired so hard and got so far, but in the end, it doesn't even matter.... or does it?

[blck_angel_eyes]

this entry is dedicated to the someone who has been very special in my life, whom i've given my heart and soul to, someone whom i owe so much to and have respected and looked up to all my life. this goes out to aasim khan, who was there in the best and worst times of my life, and who knows me better than anyone

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[dead_yet_living]

whether you try hard or not, nothing matters in the end.

[saphron21]

You know i think about you every day. I wonder if it's okay for me to call. I wonder what would happen if i never talked to you again. I wonder what would happen if you hated me. It's hard sometimes cuz these things build up and i get depressed. I've never stopped loving you, despite my emotional withdrawl stages i used to have. I'll never stop caring. Sam and I were talking about you the other day. She was telling me how to accept different circumstances. She was trying to help me accept the fact that you're gone(for however long). I couldn't help but break down. If you need anything, please just ask. I'll give up eating if it means that you get food. I swear by it. I've changed a lot though. I look at myself in the mirror and am not what i saw 5 years ago. Hopefully, if, we ever see each other again, you'll accept who i am now. I LOVE YOU!!! DON'T FORGET THAT!! The whole fuckin world could hate me, but I want you to at least remember me, cuz i remember you and smile

just dropping by to say hello!!!

[collegedude18]

hey sweetie, really dont sweat it. youve done great without a couple of people in ur life so far and u can keep doing it. im not saying stop loving aasim, hell no, i know how much u love that boy and im not blaming u. hes the sweetest,most kind hearted, loving person ive met. but hes changed a lot, and it doesnt make him this horrible person. but he has hurt u more than i can count. i can recall the times u came to me crying about what was going on between u two. right now all u need to think about is finishing cosmo class and then opening up ur own salon and do what u love doing most, making people feel beautiful with a haircut or a manicure,peticure.LOL. i bet that in due time u guys will talk again and become the best friends that u guys used to be. but anyway brandon i love u to pieces. ever since i met u, u have been nothing but sweet and kind even when i was being a jackass and trust me i know i can be one. well ill talk to u later and we really need to hang out soon.
loves and kisses

[rawrought]

I wish that I had know that all of this was going on. I would have been there for you. I'm there for you now. It's really good to be back in touch again. *Hugs* I shed a few tears for you while reading this.

Love,
Adam