i tired so hard and got so far, but in the end, it doesn't even matter.... or does it?

[blck_angel_eyes]

this entry is dedicated to the someone who has been very special in my life, whom i've given my heart and soul to, someone whom i owe so much to and have respected and looked up to all my life. this goes out to aasim khan, who was there in the best and worst times of my life, and who knows me better than anyone

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[saphron21]

You know i think about you every day. I wonder if it's okay for me to call. I wonder what would happen if i never talked to you again. I wonder what would happen if you hated me. It's hard sometimes cuz these things build up and i get depressed. I've never stopped loving you, despite my emotional withdrawl stages i used to have. I'll never stop caring. Sam and I were talking about you the other day. She was telling me how to accept different circumstances. She was trying to help me accept the fact that you're gone(for however long). I couldn't help but break down. If you need anything, please just ask. I'll give up eating if it means that you get food. I swear by it. I've changed a lot though. I look at myself in the mirror and am not what i saw 5 years ago. Hopefully, if, we ever see each other again, you'll accept who i am now. I LOVE YOU!!! DON'T FORGET THAT!! The whole fuckin world could hate me, but I want you to at least remember me, cuz i remember you and smile.

Take care, and I pray that we see each other and revel in how much the other has grown.