Is How I Feel About It...
New York bans the N-Word
Dearest WHITE people,
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!
AND SHUT UP!
Dad! Stop picking on me!
(when you call me a bastard step child, that kind of hurts right to my uvula; when you call me that and beat me, it stings right to my soul; when you call me that and beat me and kill me, it hurts... well I guess at theat point it doesn't hurt anymore does it?)
Oh it's just having fun Satchmo, I hear you call your little brother it all the time! I'm just joining in on the FUN!
But it's not the same
(You see I call my little brother it while giving him a hug or playfully, to counteract when you call him it and throw him around the room, or call him it and tell him he cant' get a job, or call him it and tell him he's probably going to end up in jail, or will never graduate from school, or, or, or, or, or, or)
Words are words Coon, doesn't matter who says them.
I know, but-
(I'm sure this is true. Like, remember when that one black person called another black person a nigger and then dragged him 50 miles behind a truck? Remember when that one black person lynched that other black person and called them nigger? Remember that? Because I'm not recalling...)
Well my Jungle Bunny, I don't like that you don't want to share
Share?
(Share in your white guilt and irresponsibility? Do you want to share the benefits of your white privilege, or just the parts too heavy for you to carry?)
But so that this household -my household- can live in peace, I'm putting a BAN on it, and every time you -or any of us- say it, I will fine you $$ and BEAT YOU INTO SUBMISSION!
I--- I--- Quit telling ME what to do! You're not the boss of me!
(except you are which you have made abundantly clear over and over SINCE THE DAWN OF THE NEW AGE!)
I'm telling MOM!
(which I guess is moot since there's nothing really SHE can do)
Don't worry Sambo, I know what's best for you. Remember I brought you here. You wouldn't even BE HERE if it weren't for me.
But, this effects ME the most, I think I should be able to-
(Can I grow up? Out from under your thumb? Can I stop being the exception? Can I please become my own person? Why do I have to ask you for this?)
Don't worry Tar Baby, this will hurt me more than it hurts you
Well, don't you think it would be a good thing? I mean, isn't it best that a decision be made to get rid of it entirely?
Don't you think?
Don't you think you shouldn't try and tell me what to do as it pertains to the word that is used to degrade me?
Don't you think it's not your decision whether or not I get to do anything in regards to that word?
Don't you think that it's better left up to us to decide and mandate?
Or better yet, up to me to self-police?
Dont' you think the only person you should really try to be controlling is yourself?
Don't you think I hate you?
Don't you KNOW I HATE YOU?
Don't you know I don't care what the hell you think about my situation?
Don't you think I don't care a hot mess about gluing this country back together?
Don't you wish I would shut up and just let you continue you're reign of terror?
Don't you hope that I'll just roll over and let you get away with continuing to enslave me?
Don't you think I SEEE WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
Don't you think I should let it go?
Don't you effing think?
But seriously, don't you think it's a good idea?
FUCK YOU
I don't think that attitude will-
FUCK YOU
Well that was hardly-
I EX-TEND MY MIDDLE FINGER FROM MY PALM INTO THE AIR, FOR WHAT IS THE FIRST TIME EVER IN THE LIFE THAT I AM LIVING THAT HAS BEEN SYSTEMATICALLY CONTROLLED AND DESTROYED BY YOU FROM BEFORE I WAS EVEN A DREAM IN THE EYES OF MY NEGRO (NEGRESS? NIGRA? NIGGER WOMAN?) MOTHER. AND I SAY TO YOU IN A VOICE THAT HAS NEVER UTTERED THE WORD,
FUCK YOOOOOOUUUUUUU!!!!! AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.
Did you just say the N Word? Here's a ticket.
GAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
And could you also go to this sensitivity course? My Uncle Sam put it together.
WAHHHHHH
It chronicles the history of the word and how it's used to hurt African Americans.
WHOOOOOOOOOOO
You should realy take it, you've obviously forgotten some of your history if you think saying that word is okay for anyone?
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT
I'm glad I was here to put you on the right track. Sometimes it's easy to forget when you're living it.
WHEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNN
Because if it weren't for me... oh, well, uhh,
WHEEEEEEERRRRRRREEEEE
Then this thing would just keep on... oh, well, uhh
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Do you have $500 that you could send in with that ticket?
HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWW
(and may I interject to say that i love how the first crackdown is on entertainers, ie black people in the arts who use the word,
COOOOOOOOUUUUUUUULLLLLLDDDD
because seriously, how many white people in entertainment that is not commissioned by the KKK are using the word nigger in
YYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUU
their anything?)
But we're just trying to helllllp
HELP YOURSELF!
Well gay people don't relaly mind when-
Yes they do, and shut up.
Well Asians would never think to-
THIS IS NOT ABOUT ASIANS!
THIS IS NOT ABOUT MEXICANS
THIS IS NOT ABOUT GAY
THIIS IS ABOTU MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
THE ONE THAT YOU ENSLAVED FOR OVER FIVE HUNDRED YEARS
(slavery wasn't that long, it just ended... umm, when did it end? 189-.... 197-.... 199-.... 200-...)
STOP INTERRUPTING AND START ACCEPTING!!!!
That's what we're doing, and we're doing it on our terms and learning nothing in the process, because it's obvis this word that is causing everything to go wrong, and once it is done away with EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER!
Oh!
SO YOU ARE AN IDIOT?!
BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT!!!!
A WORD!
my heart beats itself pumping blood of toxicity and hatred through my veins and it has made me have to work harder than I ever had not to rail out and grab the thing closest to me and it's made me tired and weary of trying to explain the things you already know but won't admit that you know or won't try to understand or won't give me the benefit of your ear because you already know it all and of course you understand except you don't and you never will and part of that kills you so you whine about why you can't say and if you absolutely cannot say than no one can because that's the answer because still even at the end, even at the end of all of this it is about a WORD.
NIGGER
just a word, because we're that sensitive and pent up it could be about nothing else but that WORD
NIGGER
and all of it variations which are created to take off the sting whch means it shouldn't be so bad when you say it, but somehow it ends up being much much worse?
NIGGER
So let's play a game called what if? What if we banned the word and no one else said it ever? Wiil you still give me that job, or aid or house in that neighborhood or dirty looks, or beatings, or pull me over, or hate me?
What if we play by my rules?