so here's the final email. my decision made ( Read more... )

so a friend of mine that knows kevin persuaded me to ask for the email he sent again. apparently he had been telling beth some lies just cuz he thought it was what he wanted to hear.. and so they fought about it and he went on this honesty burst, and there's things in there that he's never said to me before. so i asked him for it.. he had already ( Read more... )

i wasn't gonna post this.. but fuck it. why the fuck not. im fucking angry. get ready for sifting through some heavy bullshit! don't worry. i'll LJcut this time ( Read more... )

hello all ( Read more... )

obsessed with this song. clearly a huge link to the kevin shit. fucking hits all the right notes. LISTEN TO IT! SO MUCH BETTER TO MUSIC ( Read more... )

i also fucking hate my fucking job. i don't know why.. i'm usually totally cool with going to work when i gotta work but every goddamn shift at the barn i have HATED that i had to go to. just makes me fucking miserable. why am i so fucking miserable right now!?

fucking fuck. i keep finding myself in such an unsure state. one minute i'm so happy with the way things are, loving what i'm doing, staying chill, content to have no one but my friends, the next im crying in the shower wondering why i don't have anyone and why those i had and dedicated myself to, fucking threw it all away ( Read more... )

here be some coolio shots i just took recently! did some work on paint to lessen the bags on my eyes cuzza the way the light was. aswell as enhance the tear in the one pic in a crazy way.

( boredness )

1. You have $5 and need to buy snacks at a gas station. What do you buy ( Read more... )

oh the madess there is to update on ( Read more... )