So I was reading a friend of mines journal asking what the pro's of being single were. I knew at one point I'd posted a "Pros and Cons of Living Alone," and I went to find it. I found it, written 5 years ago TO THE DAY, when I had just ended a two year relationship and was living alone in Kirkland ( Read more... )

Did a steamy new photo shoot with Mina Bast. It was. .. amazing to say the least. It's one thing to make love to your partner. . . it's entirely different knowing each moment will be captured on film. Really slowing down and taking the time to touch, to feeeeeel. . . god I sound like a hippie ( Read more... )

That was horrible.

I ate ice cream for dinner. So I went to the gym and ran on the elliptical for a solid hour. I came home and was so fucking hungry from my workout, I ate two pieces of lasagna and two bowls of sugar smacks.

Damn. Bulimia never looked so good.

Well here I am again, quitting smoking. It seems a little harder this time than the last time, as the cravings are more often and more intense. This time it's definitely mind over matter though. I said I wouldn't smoke past the age of 30, and damnit, I won't. I'm trying to avoid triggers right now, like coffee and my back porch. Ugh. Went to ( Read more... )

I'm bitchy today. I'm tired of things not working out as I plan them to. Yes, yes, that's selfish and egocentric of me - but hell, some things are just supposed to be a certain way, ya know? Some things are a given ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here in my old office, wondering how I did this every day. My old boss hired me back on only one day a week, just so I could make some extra money over the summer. . .and the hours just can't go by fast enough. I didn't realize I'd provided myself with such a non-structured life in the 2 years I've been gone. After two hours, I'm like ( Read more... )

Nine more days and this rust is biting into my flesh, this chain getting tighter by the minute. Love and longing swirl around my memory, threatening to burst the links before the expiration date. The years that held our bond together so tight will not wash off, I'm scrubbing these hands and the wounds remain. You were my most traumatizing ( Read more... )

Can you believe we've lived here for 8 months already? This is the first time I think I've lived somewhere other than my mom's where I felt a real sense of "home ( Read more... )

This is what happens when I spend ALL night in front of the computer ( Read more... )

It's because some chapters shouldn't be closed.