*sigh*

[blackazurite]

There's someone who obviously doesn't like me very much and seems to be quite afraid that after all this time I'd come and try to take someone away from him... more than I do through my sheer existence, because now I've become active once again. There seems to be the impression that at the moment I just have got nothing better to do, or whatever

Comments

Gah

[sheritos]

Well I feel a bit as if you're talking about me

Re: Gah

[sheritos]

This is right, I did mean you ^^
It's not that I feel attacked in any way... how could I, nobody said anything to me, I just read much into small comments now and then.

Well I think you can't really be blamed for feeling this way. Meanwhile I know very well how this is, feeling kind of left out or behind, and at the same time feeling guilty about it.

I also didn't write this because this is all such a big problem, I just wanted to make my intentions clear, because sometimes I'm just baffled when I realize that things I do that seem perfectly normal for me, without any ulterior motives, actually bother someone else. It's just that I don't like it very much to get the impression that I am somehow blamed for existing...

But as I said I would just offer friendship and maybe comfort, something I would wish for myself were I in this situation. (which I actually am, but that doesn't belong here)

Thanks

[sheritos]

Well, thanks for listening and thanks for understanding.

I'm sorry for blaming you for your existence but.. you know....

I'd also like us to be friends but I don't know if I am able to manage that with myself....

we'll see...

cu

apologize

[my_malachite]

I guess I should apologize for all the trouble I've caused. I'm really sorry for that

Re: apologize

[sheritos]

I don't believe this is a matter of intelligence. I mean for me it often enough seems as if intelligence would only ruin relationships.

Being able to say such things without thinking about it before is better than saying nothing because of thinking about it too long.

If you were shocked imagine how shocked I was.

I don't know what I can say about telling things but it happens that I sometimes feel as if there are some things you really don't want to tell me and I don't know why... I will have to accept this...
But that's another story...

I am not able to be angry with you the moment you talk to me so how could I if you apologize for something I still blame me for.
love you