*sigh*
There's someone who obviously doesn't like me very much and seems to be quite afraid that after all this time I'd come and try to take someone away from him... more than I do through my sheer existence, because now I've become active once again. There seems to be the impression that at the moment I just have got nothing better to do, or whatever the hell he seems to think. I'd do this only out of boredom or because I feel very alone at the moment.
YES, I stated my priorities once, and would the one I chose first come to me that would naturally have my foremost attention, but that does not mean I cannot be with my friends anymore because of that, ne?
Newsflash: I could not then and I cannot now give more than I said once. Oh yes, I could offer comfort, if I knew nobody would misunderstand that for more than it is. I cannot offer the emotion everyone seems to be after... at least now I don't. I wouldn't even say that I can only give this to one single person at a time, but right now that's what it is. But I think first I will have to get myself together again.
As you can see when you look at me, I'm pieces of what I used to be [...] Nothing's what it seems to be, I'm a replica, I'm a replica. Empty shell inside of me, I'm not myself, I'm a replica of me
In Polyamory terms... I still behave like I'm in a primary relationship, at least my heart does, but maybe someone can at the same time become a secondary... and perhaps I might even be able to let go of that "primary" someday. Like always, I will see in time. Though I do not seek, I at least look. But all this does not change my friendship.
And what the hell... I would not try to break something that works, though some people seem to think I would.
YES, I stated my priorities once, and would the one I chose first come to me that would naturally have my foremost attention, but that does not mean I cannot be with my friends anymore because of that, ne?
Newsflash: I could not then and I cannot now give more than I said once. Oh yes, I could offer comfort, if I knew nobody would misunderstand that for more than it is. I cannot offer the emotion everyone seems to be after... at least now I don't. I wouldn't even say that I can only give this to one single person at a time, but right now that's what it is. But I think first I will have to get myself together again.
As you can see when you look at me, I'm pieces of what I used to be [...] Nothing's what it seems to be, I'm a replica, I'm a replica. Empty shell inside of me, I'm not myself, I'm a replica of me
In Polyamory terms... I still behave like I'm in a primary relationship, at least my heart does, but maybe someone can at the same time become a secondary... and perhaps I might even be able to let go of that "primary" someday. Like always, I will see in time. Though I do not seek, I at least look. But all this does not change my friendship.
And what the hell... I would not try to break something that works, though some people seem to think I would.