Transition by Sannea, chapter 8/12

[sannea]

Chapter 8: November 23th 2005, Pittsburgh

Rapidly cooling water slowed first to a trickle and finally down to a few droplets splashing gently against Brian’s back as he shook the worst of the wetness out of his hair. He bent over, retrieving the used condom before stepping out of the shower cubicle and dumping it in the trash with a sated sigh

Comments

[snowmore]

I love how often you post. I hope to have time to read this tonight. Thank you.

[sannea]

Thanks Snowmore :-)

I waited weeks to start posting because I know how it is to wait forever for an update and wonder if the author will even finish it. This is all done so I can update regularly right to the very end ;-)

[snowmore]

Oooohhhhh, I love you even more. That is very considerate.

[herefordroad]

i found this fic and decided to read it up to the present before commenting. first, i want to say that it is fantastic. to bring back the character of alex, who made such a brief but important contribution to the series, was brilliant. the way brian connected with alex was touching, emotional, and brand new for brian. it was a relationship between two mature individuals, so different from anything brian had with michael and michael's hero worship. and even though i love the relationship that brian and ted have, it was something beyond that, too...with a great depth of understanding and intellect.

justin's return brought me to tears and chapter 8 breaks my heart anew:

“I want you to have New York,” he started firmly"

“It’s too fucking ironic for words that once I finally realized what Pittsburgh had to offer me, you left for the one place, I’ve always wanted to go to.”

i look forward to your next post and i'm hanging on to justin's last words:

“So just fucking come visit me already,”

[sannea]

Thank you so much for your lovely feedback :-)

I'm so thrilled that others respond the same way as I did when I first perceived of having Brian have someone in his life who could facilitate the transition between his old habits and into...well I'll get to that lol but obviously it includes Justin :-)

I agree about Ted. I invented Alex because Ted has the potential to be such a good friend to Brian but because of their shared history I don't see him filling the role that I gave Alex instead.

[alasse]

OH, Sannea... there's a suspicious stinging in my eyes as well. I loved this chapter. It may be my favorite yet... Seriously, loved how you transmited Brian's hesitance, his doubt, his pain, and his total awareness and love of Justin in the smallest of details (noticing the way he's moving, his eyes in the mirror...)
And the conversation between them was SO powerful and painful, and perfectly Brian and Justin. I'm glad they finally said those things, that Justin has let go of the fairy tale but understood that Brian didn't say all that just to push him off the cliff, but had slowly come to terms with loving him. And one must thank Alex for helping Brian actually put this into words.
Wonderful!
Can't wait for more :)
Hugs,
Arlad

p.s. my new story is up... but I read in a comment you don't much like AUs, huh? Ah, well... I'll write some cannon later :)

[sannea]

Thank you Arlad *hugs back*

I'm so thrilled you liked the conversation. I think their conversation is one of the hardest part of writing this.

And yes poor Brian in these past chapters, thsoe were quite hard to write for that reason alone.

So getting this kind of feedback is....beyond rewarding *at loss for words*

*hugs*
Sannea

[volvenord]

This was so poignant, and the crux is: what does Brian want and also need? To actually become aware of what you want, identify it, FEEL it, conceptualize it and then act upon it, is of the greatest importance in growing emotionally. It doesn't always meant you get or should get all you want and need at the spur of the moment. It is rather to heed it and then decide what you can live with i full filling it, finding a substitute or forgo it.

You caught Brian in a nutshell there, I think. I bet most of his needs where neither met nor allowed when he was a child, so he has a way to go there. Blessed Justin for seeing it, voicing it and challenge him.

Looking very much forward to next chapter. Valkyrie

[volvenord]

This was so poignant, and the crux is: what does Brian want and also need? To actually become aware of what you want, identify it, FEEL it, conceptualize it and then act upon it, is of the greatest importance in growing emotionally. It doesn't always meant you get or should get all you want and need at the spur of the moment. It is rather to heed it and then decide how you may full fill it, finding a substitute or forgo it.

You caught Brian in a nutshell there, I think. I bet most of his needs where neither met nor allowed when he was a child, so he has a way to go there. Blessed Justin for seeing it, voicing it and challenge him.

Looking very much forward to next chapter. Valkyrie