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Transition by Sannea, chapter 8/12

Jul 04, 2007 16:21

Chapter 8: November 23th 2005, Pittsburgh

Rapidly cooling water slowed first to a trickle and finally down to a few droplets splashing gently against Brian’s back as he shook the worst of the wetness out of his hair. He bent over, retrieving the used condom before stepping out of the shower cubicle and dumping it in the trash with a sated sigh ( Read more... )

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volvenord July 4 2007, 21:09:58 UTC

This was so poignant, and the crux is: what does Brian want and also need? To actually become aware of what you want, identify it, FEEL it, conceptualize it and then act upon it, is of the greatest importance in growing emotionally. It doesn't always meant you get or should get all you want and need at the spur of the moment. It is rather to heed it and then decide how you may fullfill it, finding a substitute or forgo it.

You caught Brian in a nutshell there, I think. I bet most of his needs where neither met nor allowed when he was a child, so he has a way to go there. Blessed Justin for seeing it, voicing it and challenge him.

Looking very much forward to next chapter. Valkyrie

kari77 July 4 2007, 21:45:23 UTC

Justin reached out and grabbed his arm. “I know what you’ve always told me. That’s exactly my point. For as long as I’ve known you, you’ve lived your life first obsessed by trying to avoid all that you didn’t want and then trying to give me and everyone else for that matter what we want or expect from you. But what do you want?” He looked up at Brian, eyes wide open and beseeching.

Brian felt the anger evaporate as suddenly as it had appeared, leaving saddened weariness in its place. What did he want? Since when the fuck did that matter?

With these two paragraphs you captured the essence of Brian. Everybody thinks they know what he wants and he gives them what they expect from him. But no one ever asked him what he really wants for himself. So even Brian forgot to ask himself that question. It's a good thing Justin is around for these kind of things. And, of course, you to make him ask and take care of Brian and calling him on his BS.

The conversation was so perfectly in character and the ending leaves us with hope. =)
*hugs*
Kari

sannea July 5 2007, 05:42:49 UTC

You know how thrilled I am when someone and you especially says *my* Brian is in character *hugs, kisses and much love*

And hell yeah, it was about time someone asked Brian what he wanted and reminded him to ask that question of himself as well.

volvenord July 4 2007, 22:08:41 UTC

This was so poignant, and the crux is: what does Brian want and also need? To actually become aware of what you want, identify it, FEEL it, conceptualize it and then act upon it, is of the greatest importance in growing emotionally. It doesn't always meant you get or should get all you want and need at the spur of the moment. It is rather to heed it and then decide how you may full fill it, finding a substitute or forgo it.

You caught Brian in a nutshell there, I think. I bet most of his needs where neither met nor allowed when he was a child, so he has a way to go there. Blessed Justin for seeing it, voicing it and challenge him.

Looking very much forward to next chapter. Valkyrie

volvenord July 4 2007, 22:15:19 UTC

Sorry for the many repeats. I tried several times without seemingly success ("problem loading page" was the message each time), So I turned the computer off. Yet it came trough I discovered now.
Valkyrie (with an embarrassed blush)

sannea July 5 2007, 05:39:36 UTC

*does best Brian impersonation* Don't worry there is no such thing as enough ;-)

I'm very touched that you'd go to such trouble to post your reply even if your computer was playing up.

I'm glad you approved of my description of Brian's dilemma. Exactly like you say, I belive one cannot grow emotionally without coming to terms with what you truly want and then finding out how that applies to your life.

I think it's one of the most interesting complexities of QAF that Brian is the spokesperson for being true to your own wishes while he's simultaniously the master of self-denial.

freakykat July 6 2007, 00:29:01 UTC

Brian felt the anger evaporate as suddenly as it had appeared, leaving saddened weariness in its place. What did he want? Since when the fuck did that matter?See, right there? That's Brianm in 30 words or less. The biggest problem I always had with the way the show was written was the fact that Brian's character was always described by others, be it characters, actors, or the creators themselves as a completely selfish man, unapoloogectic ( ... )

sannea July 6 2007, 14:06:47 UTC

See, right there? That's Brianm in 30 words or less. The biggest problem I always had with the way the show was written was the fact that Brian's character was always described by others, be it characters, actors, or the creators themselves as a completely selfish man, unapoloogectic.

I agree. And what annoyed me even more was when they described him as a sort of almost twodimensional icon for gay life and freedom rather than a person. I don't think I've ever seen a more complex character on television.

So the fact that Justin actually voiced what was so painful about the end of series made me literally cry. My poor god-sister was freaked out a bit lol.

What a wonderful complient for me. I hope she got over the sight ;-)

I love the maturity in Justin, although I am sad he can no longer find joy in Rage which I thought was one of his best creations, I like that at least he's starting to know himself. That may have less crossed signals for him and Brian.I'm so glad to know that. I made the choice early on to tell this from Brian' ( ... )