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bjerk919

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Sep 04, 2006 01:53

You lie so much I can't even keep up anymore.

Please make it stop. How can I still love him, how can I still want to be with him?

Why is it that I find myself going to my wedding ring and slipping it on? It is heavy on my hand and I miss it so much.

Goddanm can things just get fucking better instead of staying this way?

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xprettyxinpink1 September 4 2006, 07:48:49 UTC

[btw, this is hillary, my other LJ was xxsilentstar]

I'm sending hugs your way sweetie..I know what you're going through.

bjerk919 September 4 2006, 15:42:24 UTC

Hey there. I will add this journal now that I know it is you.
It sucks but I guess it is all a process of letting go.
Thanks for the happy thoughts.
PS I love your icon, that movie makes me believe in real love.

xprettyxinpink1 September 4 2006, 16:39:54 UTC

My situation is a little different than yours, as I decided to leave my husband due to the way he was treating me [like shit!] and he is fighting me tooth and nail on EVERYTHING as far as our "household goods" is involved.

xprettyxinpink1 September 4 2006, 16:41:08 UTC

oops hits send before I was finished, sorry!!

But I still find myself putting on my wedding rings now and then, just a habit I suppose. Divorcing sucks, but like you said, it's all a process of letting go, which was kind of easier for me than it is for you.

*hugs*

lilgwen September 4 2006, 12:19:13 UTC

*hugs*

bjerk919 September 4 2006, 15:41:15 UTC

Thanks :)
How are things in Hinesville? Did you guys find a way to reup without being stuck there?

lilgwen September 4 2006, 16:11:14 UTC

nothing can be done until oct 1st, so no we're still stuck :(

katielilie September 4 2006, 12:54:42 UTC

Oh sweetie, I can't even pretend to know what you're going through. My friend Wes (fools_rant) is going through the same thing right now. I'm afraid all I have for you are hugs and payers.

bjerk919 September 4 2006, 15:40:20 UTC

It's okay I just need happy thought sent my way so thanks for those :)

lazychick September 4 2006, 21:25:13 UTC

I know we don't know one another well, but my thoughts are with you.

It's hard not to want to hold on to something you've preserved for such a long time. But stay strong and you'll get through this. ^__^

lazychick September 5 2006, 22:36:19 UTC

Thanks, good vibes are always helpful.
Starbucks have been key in keeping me upbeat during the day.

julieqt September 5 2006, 09:17:48 UTC

You are too beautiful, too smart and too good of a person to be treated poorly. I'm sure right now sucks but it's just part of the process. Thankfully, after a few more crappy steps the "Meet Someone One Million Times Better" step comes along!

You don't deserve any of this, but I've seen your precious kiddo and I'm sure that HE is worth all the BS you are dealing with. If all the heartache and pain gets you NOTHING but your son then you are a blessed gal.

*Hugs* and wishes of body lice, scabies or some other equally uncomfortable plague for the jerk.

julieqt September 5 2006, 22:37:53 UTC

Thanks sweetie.
I look at my son everyday and wish things were different but honestly if we stayed with him my son would grow up treating me and his future wife the same way and that would be even worse.
With help I know I will get through this, for now it is just tough learning how to set boundries with someone who you still want to be with for some fucked up reason.