ill be the first one to admit. ill tell you its a sin that i dont believe in ( Read more... )

what the hell am i doing? i am not treating my body very well, thats what. i said i would quit the cloves. i smoked 4 tonight, but the first in a week. i cant talk now. ASHLEY STOP FUCKING UP YOUR VOICE! im not giving my body the best sorces of nutrients and i missed two cardio oportunities/nights out dancing. and i missed them to drink. which ( Read more... )

oh fuck ash. if your stupid iresponsible actions and landed you the deserver consiquences... this better just be me being parinoid. i will be so pissed at myself. so ashamed. this must mean from now on i must not make excuses. i must respect myself more. this is hurting and i will never get why i like to hurt myself. why i lack disapline. why i ( Read more... )

what a beautiful day. worked 14 hours. made a little money. miss jame jimmy james came to visit. i like her. shes just a genuinly nice person, and there are few of them left in this world. shes just what i look for in my company. there are few i look so foward to hangin with. ed bought our tickets for say anything! woo! AND piebald! AND ( Read more... )

this is better ( Read more... )

i love a night on the town that costs me nothing.
beer at the feilds.
drive joe home.
beer/h20 new world in exchange for a hug and a smoke.
castle door.
purse check.
dance dance.
gotta work? not at all <3 ( Read more... )

its ok to unleash on the one ive had my eyes on for awhile now. and if this one proves to be a fucker too, good. my theory that all boys suck will start showing some truth. i am super sensitive. and my heart my suffer minor injuries time after time of letting these boys too close. but it also heals rapidly. i can move on in hours. part of the ( Read more... )

marc is on his way. should kill sometime so ill type ( Read more... )

i am assuming that very few people read this. cause i just want to write for me ( Read more... )

you'd think i loved being in these situations, cause it's only me that puts me here. [i had forgoten how thereputic live journals could be. pink floyed covered by my morning jacket is rather calming as well.] it started mentally on a bad note. i thrive off people, and those around me were possessing positive vibes like crazy so i quickly shot up to ( Read more... )