crying

[birdie1986]

I can't stop the tears it sll hurts so so so much, i'm not safe in my room and it's 3 am and i don't know where else i can go - no one is up, there's nothing to dop but ride it out and i can't and i'm scared adn u don't want this back again, i can't breather it hurts so so so bad

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[lucylia]

I hope that you are feeling better now. Were you ok last night in the end? I really hope that you were, maybe have a think about what has pushed you over into this state of mind again and try and challenge it. i know that it isn't easy tho.
Please take care of yourself.

Lu

[birdie1986]

thanks yeah i was ok in the end i found someone still up at 4am and went and sat in their roomand cried for a bit.

it was a cumulation of things that pushed me, some of it my fault some of it not, and all fuelled by a lack of sleep and a bit of alcohol.

I'm feeling a bit better today, still not great but am getting there i hope

thank you
*k*

[black__lace]

Hey
I'm glad you're feeling a bit better today. Have you got people to talk to about whatever it is that's been bothering you?
Congratulations on getting your job. What are you going to be doing?
Thinking of you, but often without the words to comment,

Lisa

[birdie1986]

thanks, don't worry about not having the words, i dont' always at the moment either.

hope your revision etc is all going ok?

the job is working at a kids summer camp, am gonna be in derbyshire for 9 weeks or so at a multi activity center!
no there isn't anyone to talk to really, but that's kind of how i want it right now - i know it might class as stupid but at the same time i need to stand on my own feet at some point.