when giving up starts to feel like a really really REALLY good idea

[slfcllednowhere]

hi. so i posted here a few weeks ago about feeling so horrible i didn't want to take my meds. i'm sure nobody remembers because i'm not terribly memorable. anyway, people were really helpful and supportive. i started taking them again, i saw my doctors, i started seeing my friends and getting stuff accomplished and all that kind of shit and i

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[krissykross]

I'll be honest. Sometimes I don't really think it will get better. And I panic and cry and do stupid things...

But it CAN. It's never going to be easy, but it can most definitely get better. With the right combination of medication, therapy, and support from friends and family life can be tolerable and even fun sometimes.

That's just my point of view.

Hang in there.

[mab]

Oh boy! I know exactly how you feel. In my experience, my episodes are getting worse the older I get. I was locked up for a month and a half the last time, back in May/June/July

[noiredemons]

It can and will get better. It takes a while sometimes to wrap your head around the diagnosis but this is not a disease that can't be manage. Try to put it in the perspective of having diabetes. It's a life long disease that you take medicine for to manage. Bipolar is a bit more trickier to manage but it can be managed.

I was diagnosed at 17, tried meds, hated it and didn't try meds again till i was 19 when I went "crazy". I've been medicated since then. I'm 27. Since 17 I've managed to graduate high school, go to college and earn my Masters in Social Work. I'm able to work full-time even though some days its hard as hell to attempt work. I've had my fair share of "sick" days really being mental health "I can't deal with the world" days. I've had some sort of therapist for most of the past 10 years which definitely makes life easier for me. I also have a mostly supportive family especially my mother.

So it can get better, it just takes a one step at a time. Hugs.

[thisredemption]

I remember so many times thinking that it could not get better, not remembering at all what it even felt like to feel okay or 'normal' or whatever. and then all of a sudden i found my 'cocktail' and just couldn;t believe it. i had completely forgotten what it felt like to feel okay and normal and not crazy and tightly wound and too big for my skin or too dead for my life or whatever. my point is that, honestly, there is something out there that will make you feel okay and it is impossible to believe when you are feeling wrecked either way, but i promise, it;s there. and if u lose it sometimes, it comes back. we can't irradicate our bipolar, even while on meds, but we can come close, we can feel better than we thought possible or more sane, with the right treatment. i'm not sure if this helps because i know that sometimes i don;t believe it but then feeling okay happens again and i hold onto that, that it DOES happen and will again.

[cassigail]

If you give up, you are letting this "disease" win. Having bipolar disorder is an every day struggle, but if you have a good support system (good friends, good family, therapy, pdoc, medication, and most importantly, faith in yourself), then you CAN conquer this. There are days when I feel like everything I have ever done in life was just a joke, that all the decisions I've made are fuck ups and I will never have a "real" life. But at the end of the day, I am STILL a person, JUST like EVERYONE else, and I have a RIGHT to be happy, damn it! Some people will never understand, not even family, but you have to keep FIGHTING. You are better than this disease. Please, for your own sake, stay on your medication. Do you have a therapist? Giving up is not a good idea. I felt like giving up last night, but then my boyfriend reminded me that he LOVES me and I remembered that I am worth loving and I CAN be happy. Some days are heaven, some are hell, but it's all worth it in the end. When things are good, they're REALLY good, and when they're bad