the devil ya know

[bipolartist]

I'm scared. I'm out of it, my friendships all seem unreal, I'm nervous all the time, I'm slightly depressed. So I told my pdoc all this and I said I just didn't think after 10 years that Wellbutrin is cutting it. I've never taken an SSRI while taking a mood stabilizer like Zyprexa. I wonder if things will get better or will they get worse? I

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[artzgirl1987]

High anxiety gives me chest pains.

[findingjayson]

Me too.

[bipolarwhore]

How do you mean your friends seem unreal? I'm curious because I have up/down relationships with my friends and I'm wondering whether we're on the same page when you say this.

Xx

unreal friends

[bipolartist]

I guess I just don't feel as close to my friends now that I'm older. It just used to seem like when I was younger I had people to just hang out with whenever I wanted, to do things like go for walks or watch t.v. together, run around taking pictures, fun stuff. Now it seems like all my "friends" just want to go to bars. No one ever wants to just come over and hang out. I don't know... I just don't feel like any of my current friends know me very well either. Like last night I was so bored and so depressed, I called everyone, even reaching out to a few "new" friends, and I got no response from anyone. I was just left all alone. It just made me feel sad, like I really had no one to turn to. I'm in a better mood today and have plans to go out to dinner with a friend, but inevitably I'll end up back at home alone -- I live alone -- and I'll probably just drink myself to sleep... again!

Re: unreal friends

[bipolarwhore]

I feel similar, don't have any close friends - don't really feel comfortable putting myself out there to make new ones. I'm stuck in a strange loop where the friends I have aren't ideal and half the time I can't be bothered with them. Eesh I sound like such a bitch writing this but it's just how I feel and I can't dismiss that.

If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here - we all are, but I know where you're coming from in the friends department, it's tough especially when you just want someone to hang out & keep you company.

Xx

[happyhijabi]

Zyprexa is actually an antipsychotic. A more traditional mood stabilizer would be an anticonvulsant like Lamictal, Depakote, Trileptal, Topamax, Tegretol, - oh and Lithium... You may want to try one of those to stabilize your moods. Antidepressants just kind of pingpong our moods all over the place, so a mood stabilizer would probably be a much better choice. Just my 2 cents and of course bring this all up with your pdoc.

[happyhijabi]

Oh and I take 75mg of Zoloft for OCD only, they are super careful with it because if I start getting high it gets yanked. Watch out for mania and rapid cycling on it.