How I Am Feeling Today...

[bipolarme]

Well after a rough last week, I am feeling a bit better. I SI'ed 3 times and cried a lot. I had a lot of saddness and frustration and guilt, but slowly came out of it. Today I am ok. I weigh myself this afternoon and I am 104. I haven't been this low in a long time. My BMI is 17.3 which is pretty underweight. My usual weight is 109 giving me a BMI

Comments

[deadly_angst]

i haven't SI'd in a long time. I resort to drinking now...

well good for you

[bipolarme]

for not si'ing, but not good to drink instead. you are just replacing your pain with another vice. all of us addicts seem to do that. if one thing doesn't work good enough, or stops working, we try the next best thing. i have been si'ing since i was 15 and i did drinking and drugs and pills, the whole route. we must find more positive ways to kill our pain. i was in a DBT behavioral therapy group that taught us ways to handle ourselves in positive ways. if you would like some help, let me know. i do the best i can with this and it does help a lot.

Re: well good for you

[deadly_angst]

i would like some help, thank you. I would appreciate any kind of help you can give me.

[volcgrrl]

Haven't heard from you in a long time, just wondered how you're doing. *hugs*