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[billy_dilly]

Sometimes I think about doing myself in. It'd be easy, quick, and best of all, it would all finally be over. There'd be a lot of drama, at first (I wouldn't have to deal with any of it, so what do I care?), but as I disappear into the past, people would just keep moving forward, and eventually forget that I was even here

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[well_hidden]

Eric, I love you so much! I miss you a lot. I hope I can come to Vegas soon, but I'm all the way in Portsmouth New Hampshire. I wish we talked more, honestly. I hope if I called you it'd be welcome. I can't ever seem to shake the feeling that you silently resent me for always leaving. I love you no matter what though, and reading this makes me sad and makes me really wanna just come to Vegas and have adventures with you and stuff.

[billy_dilly]

If you've ever wanted to get in touch, you should know my email address by now. I don't "silently resent" anyone.

[well_hidden]

;_;

[billy_dilly]

Y U CRY? That's Asian for "Why are you crying?"

[purplebunnie_]

While I know this sounds really Pollyanna, I think doing is the only way to change for you. We don't wait to be inspired, you know? We go out and live life and experience thing and inspiration comes along the way.

[billy_dilly]

I try to get out there. My life is pretty much ruled by my swing shift schedule, which makes it difficult to do anything outside of work. I hate needing money just as much as I hate missing out on eventful days.

[promeny]

I can relate to how you are feeling. I often feel like I'll amount to nothing in life.

You really do have a lot of talent, and it would really be sad to see you go away for good. Death is probably no better than life, I think.

[billy_dilly]

Your support means a lot to me. I'm sure that I wont die by my own hand, but I can't help but think about it, as well as the outcome, consequences, what I'd leave for my surviving family members to deal with, all that jazz...

And even if folks look forward and sense that there's nothing ahead for them, doesn't mean that they automatically accept it, as if they're supposed to deal with that idea of their lives.

I don't ever see myself amounting to anything great. It's not the most important thing in the world- to be great- but still, I lose sleep over this feeling, all the time. Deep inside, there's something that tells me that I could reach for the stars, but it's too fantastic for me to take seriously.

FUCK! I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS THIS STUPID SHIT!