i started this journal my freshman year in college. it has served its purpose and i've made a new one for the next stage in my life. if you feel so inclined to read it this is the address.

http://abeautlfulletdown.blogspot.com/

It seems almost impossible to start writing this because of everything that has become of my life, or will become of my life in the upcoming months. To say the least, the end of my undergrad career is a blur. I have spent so much time reflecting on my life, of who I wanted to be and where I have become, and for once I am just letting myself be, ( Read more... )

i feel a really strong urge to write something because sometimes writing just makes me feel like my life is in order ( Read more... )

i can honestly say that i am ready for college to be over. i would be happy if we graduated this weekend, went to daytona, and i was starting a new life ( Read more... )

my last journal entry was written at 143am. wierd ( Read more... )

last semester of my undergrad life ( Read more... )

one good thing about break is that i have absolutley nothing to do. seriously, nothing for class, grad school stuff is DONE and SENT and WAITING for reply. not a damn thing to do. and i have successfully slept in until 11am everyday. my bed is the greatest thing that ever happened and it is too hard to get out of it in the morning ( Read more... )

yesterday was probably one of the worst days i have ever had. i went to work, got back to check my nutrition grade and she gave me a 35/100. on a project i worked 2 weeks on. i had over 100% in the class before the project and the grading was ridiculous. she said everyone choose there grade; yup i chose a 35%. after a 13 hour battle i finally got ( Read more... )

i think i would honestly be happy if:

1. I got into Case Western
2. I lost 30lbs
3. I really told a certain few people how I feel

fucking bullshit. seriously i am really angry right now. i feel like i was betrayed. i'm done with it. another good thing in my life goes to shit. fuck those people, i'll show them.

and that's the end of that.