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I Must Be Missing, I Must Be Missing The Point.
I felt comfortable with you. I wasn't paranoid about my body. I liked being around you, you made me feel special and like you wanted me and you didn't have to say anything. It wasn't like it was something profound and beautiful, it just takes quite a lot for me to feel comfortable around anyone ( Read more... ) -
Blood Bank.
I had a lovely night last night, seeing everyone at Lois' was really good as I don't often see everyone anymore. It felt good and comfortable which I haven't felt around lots of people in ages ( Read more... ) -
This Is The Last Time That You Will Ever Do This
Right now, I'm actually pretty angry. You like me enough to be sleeping with me for like 7 months but not enough for me to be your girlfriend. I want to tell him that, I want him to know that he's pissed me off. But there's no point in being immature really. Even though I really want to be immature and for him to know he's hurt me, I'm not going to ( Read more... ) -
Waiting…
I'm done. It doesn't feel negative. Let's see if I go through with it. I'm just clinging onto my want for someone to help me through this. It's not him to do it. It's something I have to learn to do for me. I deserve someone who is proud to be with me, not someone who is embarrassed of me. I want to talk to him and tell him that I really like him ( Read more... ) -
A Coma Might Feel Better Than This.
And i'm afraid to sleep because of what haunts me,
such as living with the uncertainty,
that i'll never find the words to say which would completely explain,
just how i'm breaking down.
I think I'm in love with Dallas Green.
I think the only way I can possibly describe how I feel is confused. Confused about everything. Confused if my anxiety ( Read more... ) -
That was beautiful
It was just close family, we sat and watched as he was lowered in and My uncle spoke about him. He was in a coffin made of wicker. My uncle read a story from a book about pond life and dragon flies. It was to help the younger ones understand about death. The story tells of how the pond bugs keep climbing up the stems to the lily pad and not ( Read more... ) -
R.I.P Freddie Michael Smith
When I came upstairs I saw the photo frame with a picture of him in one side and issy in the other. It folds in half like a book. I remember when he first had cancer I asked mum for pictures of him and Issy to put in that frame. I was a very superstitious child and thought that if I closed it he would die. I'm not really like that anymore but I ( Read more... ) -
I Get So Distracted By Some Peoples Reactions, That I Don't See My Own Faults For What They Are.
Things are shit right now. I got a call from Bolton, the course I wanted to do is full. Hopefully some people won't accept and I'll get a place. Everything with my cousin is getting to me, I just don't know what to do or what to say. There is nothing I can do to make it right and I feel completely helpless. I have no idea what this is going to do ( Read more... ) -
All Things To All Men
So I did it, I put myself up for rejection and got rejected. And yeah that really hurt, again. But you know what I'm glad I did it. I'm not the one being a dick here. I tried and at least I did, I don't really know why I did but I feel like I can let it go. I won't make that mistake again. I'm done, I'm out. Admittedly I should have been done a ( Read more... ) -
And I Confess, I Helped Fake The Moon Landings As Well.
Right now I kind of feel like I'm in limbo. Yeah sure I miss things the way they used to be and i feel kind of like I'm waiting for this new life. For things to click into place again. I know you can't just wait for things to happen and you have to make them happen. But everything seems so separate right now. Then, now and future stuff. I feel like ( Read more... )
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