I cant handle this anymore, i fucked up, im paying for it, and theres nothing i can do without getting torn limb by limb, i gotta try, i know it's a long shot, but hey if i dont try than ill just hate myself forever, i miss her, i really do, but i know her, and she's stubborn, but i gotta try, i mean if i dont than ill hate myself forever, maybe we ( Read more... )

it's been a long time. The only thing that i really had that wasnt exciting for my life, but was actually really bad, was my dad beating me. he beat me because i stood up for my sister, and didnt like it. I stood up for my sister because he was yelling at her, and i took the pain for her. Thank god she's ok. me on the other hand, ive got a small ( Read more... )

It has been a fair amount of time since i last edited this thing. All i really got to say is i've decided to move to England in 10 years. Yes i've decided that and im sticking to it. I know it's gonna be the hardest thing i have to do with my life, but it will be so much better for me in the long run. I mean look at my grandparents. they came here ( Read more... )

No One Ever Fucking believes me with this one major thing. I mean ive talked to so many people i thought i could trust, and they just turned their back on me and said i was insane. I know i'm not insane, some people may think i am, but i know im not. The only other person who had this same event happen to them, lives in Italy, and he's the only ( Read more... )

This week has been nuts ( Read more... )

well lauren, now i know you read my journals, so ill let you know this much, i feel how i feel, and i told carter this seeing as he was very obvious to figure it was him. I dont know the kid but ill tell you what i told him ( Read more... )

Haha i dont know why i even write in this thing no one ever responds to it. and i dont think anyone looks at it but hey it's a place for me to turn to every once and a while ( Read more... )

well tonight i went with annie to a hockey game. it was awesome. i met her friends bridget and bretta. they were farely cool. The hockey game however was swell. i watched it and found out that girls hockey isnt all that bad. i mean it can be really boring if you have two really bad teams playing against eachother but these teams werent all that bad ( Read more... )

well where to begin. i suppose ill start with my weekend ( Read more... )

Well ill update about my whole week so far ( Read more... )