I'm totally freaking out.  I've officially had too much time to think.  I need to be...busy. 

Monday, I decided.  Turkey it is. 

Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground.
And start new when your heart is an empty room.
With walls of the deepest blue.

Home's face: how it ages when you’re away.
And spring blooms and you find a love that's true,
But you don't know what now to do,
Cause the chase is all you know,
And you stopped running months ago.

And all you see is ( Read more... )

"Dont know why I'm still afraid.  If you weren't real I would make you up." 

Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but I know what you're thinking
Go where you want but I won't be too far
Go where you want and I know where you'll end up

If you fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back
I'll fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back from you

Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but ( Read more... )

I like where I am. I like who I am. I feel blessed and safe and confident. I realize this could shatter at any moment. I'm prepared to deal. Life is really full and I'm embracing it ( Read more... )

HERE I AM IN TURKEY! I think I can write whatever I want in here bc it really can't be traced back to me but the question is...who will read it? I don't really need it for therapy bc I'm writing those things with an actual pen on actual paper these days. Anybody here? Anyone? Anyone?

I worry about being happy all the time... but what can i possibly gain from the pursuit of my own happiness... besides the intense territorial selfish urge to maintain it?

oh just lay me to waste... see there are larger things aloft.

So I got my wisdom teeth out like over a week ago right? But my mouth still really hurts some and I'm pretty fussy about the whole thing. So the doctor gave me this squirty thing to use to get the food out of the holes where my teeth used to be. (isn't that gross? take a moment to throw up and then read on ( Read more... )

This is the first day of my life
Swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain, suddenly everything changed
They’re spreading blankets on the beach

Yours was the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
I don’t know where I am, I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go

So I thought I’d ( Read more... )