i hate it that i cant help them.
and that i'm part of the reason...
my best fucking friends cant see one another.
because we wont talk to you.
what the hell did you say?
why would you make up lies?
honesty is the best policy.
why cant you accept the fact?
you're mean and cruel.
so why would i want to talk to you?
joking is one thing.
this is different.
you ( Read more... )

i hate the feeling...
...of knowing he won't ever be yours.

but... i love the feeling..
..when you know he'd be the perfect one for you.

sooo.. i pretty much cant sleep. mainly because im soo pissed that it isnt even funny. here's the thing, when someone has already fucking cried about something, you dont sit there and keep making fun of them. it's hurts peoples feelings. why dont you fucking catch a clue.. oh.. but you probably didnt even take a second glance at me to even see if i ( Read more... )

wow. its been quite some time since my last update. 
school is now 2 weeks away from being over.
im kind of excited and kind of sad.
next year I'm a SENIOR, and i cant really believe it.
seems like i was just a freshman.
and im gonna miss many of the present seniors.
man, it makes me teary eyed.
on a lighter note, the end of school means....
SUMMER! 
i love ( Read more... )

I made it into National Honor Society, boy im pumped.
and today was tap day... woo hoo for my hand in jello.
i now hate the game of guess who. lol.ok, not really.
it was actually a really fun day. not as bad as i thought it would be.
and i got presents and cup cakes and it was awesome!
aaannnddd... im really tired from softball.
and my thighs are ( Read more... )

... im a horrible person. or thats just how im perceived. ill try and act better. k? ...

... wait. i didnt mean to be crappy up there. .....no wait, THIS time, i did. ...

soo.. heres how my 3-day weekend went.

friday- dentist. (got medicine). game. then came home and slept.

saturday- tooth pain and swelling of the face. woooot! & bunches of pain. watched the incredibles while wanting to cry my eyes out because of effing pain.

sunday- even more pain and swelling. and i found how hard it is to eat. dont worry. i love ( Read more... )

root canal here i come. :(

i go to the DENTIST TODAY!
sad thing is.... im excited to go.           i just want my fucking tooth fixed... and i woke up this morning and my top lip was swollen about where my tooth ache is. i just want the pain to go away.

.... ummm ...  
today- dentist, school, game vs wabash.
tomorrow- chillin at the house.
sunday- BEST SLEEP OVER EVER!
monday- ( Read more... )

MY COMPUTER IS BACK FROM REPAIR!!!

hehe. and yesterday was my birfday! it couldnt have been any better. I FREAKIN LOVE KAYLA NICOLE RIDER! she got me the bestest presents ( a new belle doll for the collection, a princess book things, princess uno, gum, crayons, and a pink tie to match hers!) and decorated my locker. thanks deary. i love it all. ( Read more... )