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sooo.. i pretty much cant sleep. mainly because im soo pissed that it isnt even funny. here's the thing, when someone has already fucking cried about something, you dont sit there and keep making fun of them. it's hurts peoples feelings. why dont you fucking catch a clue.. oh.. but you probably didnt even take a second glance at me to even see if i WAS crying, did you? of course not.. and even at that, if someone says STOP what you are saying, then fucking stop. evidently you dont know what its like to hurt someone. how would you like it if i sat there and made fun of you 24-7 because of your APPEARANCE?! omg, you're fat. your eyes are funny. YOUR BELLY BUTTON IS FUCKING CROOKED! people tend to feel insecure when you make fun of them. do you understand that? and i hate to tell you this, but if you are someone's BEST FUCKING FRIEND, you wouldnt make fun of them for their appearance. to tease one another and joke around is fine. but you take things to the next level. we were playing a game. it shouldnt have gotten this far. next time you decide to hurt me like this, im sure as hell that i WILL do it back. you hurt me once, shame on me. hurt me twice, shame on you! and its kinda weird how it runs in the family. because when i say "you", i mean the BOTH OF YOU. you two act like i dont have feelings. everyone has feelings. and im a fucking GIRL. im gonna be a little more sensitive, dont cha' think? crazy how that works. &i feel bad that you are in trouble for being home soo late and not calling... but im pretty glad. you deserve somewhat of a punishment for the way you treated ME. not to mention others that you've hurt. but basically here's my point. joking around is perfectly fine. we all do it to one another. but when you go too far, it hurts the ones you are around. so if you hear the word, STOP. then stop. i dont just say things like that for the hell of it. i actually mean it. ... okay, well.. i could go on like this forever.. but that wont help me any. i NEED an apology. but will i get one? and will it even mean anything to you? or will you just be saying it to make me happy? i dont want an apology out of pity. i want it to actually mean something. but .. you have no emotions and i dont know how i will know you are actually sorry. that goes for both of you. find a way, or dont. it's your decision.