yesterday was valentines day. i wasnt expecting anything until suddenly during 5th period i got a huge bouquet of flowers. it was ridiculous and for a second i didnt think it was for me. it ended up to be for me and it was from chris. why was i so disappointed when i found out it was my bf? he asked me if i liked it. i told him i loved it. i lied ( Read more... )

I'm having such a bad day. I dont know what to do with myself. i have a shitload of homework and WITH that one of my good guy friends totally pissed me off. i dont feel like explaining but basically i'm not allowed to talk to him in public anymore. oh my fucking god. when he told me this last night i was so mad i felt like crying. hes being so ( Read more... )

its really funny actually. some people can just really piss you off. eric for instance. he thinks hes so good because hes older than me. he thinks that he knows so much more than i do and that im so innocent. you know whats so funny though? he gets so mad easily when diss him even just a little bit. even if its indirectly ( Read more... )

i hate it when i wake up after a 9 hour sleep and feel exhausted. theres no reason to, i slept for 9 hours.

i totally want a lip piercing

so today my friend who is basically a bitch (sad i know.) indirectly told me i was emotionally unstable. my dream career is to be a psychiatrist. yes, i know i have my own problems and this job needs me to keep all my patients secrets locked inside of me. I know, i know. this is the first time i've wanted people to think im perfectly normal. I ( Read more... )

i love him. lately guys whom i've never talked to before have started to talk to me. my still secret boyfriend has been telling me for the past 2 years how beautiful i am and now i finally accept it. no matter how conceited it sounds, these guys are talking to me because i'm prettier, huh? i still look at the mirror and see some bland, semi-ugly ( Read more... )

my mom kills me. can she go away? or atleast leave her fucking lectures and rants behind her

i wish i have a illness.

because if i do then everything will make perfect sense.

right now absolutely nothing makes sense

i've been very irritable recently. i dont know why. i've just been thinking a lot recently. i've been gaining weight also. i think its probably from all the junk food i've been eating BECAUSE i'm so sad and angry. i just dont know what i want from myself right now. do i want good grades? do i want to pretty? do i want to go out and have fun? do ( Read more... )

my studying habits have gotten worse and worse. i've been extrememly lazy lately.

i am now definitely worried about college and my grades when just a few months ago i was confident that i would get into a good school.