Title: Of Snow Fall and Awkward Situations
Rating: PG-13
Main Pairing: Tao/Kris
Genre: AU, School fic, Romance
Chapters: 1/2
Summary: Tao is totally introverted. He has no friends, nothing really going on in his life except for studying and his job at the university library, and spends his days in solitude. That is, until he meets Kris, the only other Chinese student at their school. After an awkward first encounter, the pair become fast friends, however Tao begins developing feelings for the other boy which lands him in a less than desirable situation when he's caught jerking off in Kris's bed. Winter break is approaching but Tao has no idea how to communicate his feelings to Kris, let alone if Kris will forgive him.
Author Note: This is dedicated to my lovely tlist family for the holiday season. Thank you all for your fantastic conversations, Christmas cards, and continual support with things in real life. Just a cute little story to get everyone in that holiday spirit! It’s cute, it’s cheesy, and it’s something a bit different from my normal writing style. This is a massive, massive fic so I had to split it into two parts. But I really enjoyed writing this, so I hope you all enjoy reading it as well. Happy Holidays! Cheers!
The snow was falling quietly outside as Tao stacked books back into the their correct order in the shelves. It fluttered towards the earth with such flitting grace that the university student just stood there for a moment, frozen and watching in melancholy as it fell.
“Just a bit more, Huang Zi Tao.” The teen brushed some dark hair from his eyes and frowned, staring out at the blanketed quad once more.
It was November in Sweden. By this time of the year, Beijing would already be getting the occasional snowstorm and Tao longed for home. Instead he was at university, a first year majoring in business and math, very far away from home and very lonely. He was in a foreign country, still learning the language, and in the ethnic minority as his school. The tall teen spent most of the first semester secluded in his room, eating alone in a tucked away corner of the student quad, or at his job working in the library. It was a bit lonely at times, but Tao preferred it this way. Classes taught in Swedish were difficult enough and it was too much of a hassle to try and socialize with the rest of the students if they would spend most of the time trying to decipher the teen’s accent. There were other international students as well, but they were mainly from the United States or other parts of Europe.
Instead Tao kept to himself, excelling in all of his classes but not bothering to engage himself on campus unless mandated by the university. Tao was a quiet person by nature and this introverted lifestyle did not bother him… most of the time. However with the snowfall and brisk winter winds that swept through the large stone buildings of campus, Tao began longing for home. There was still a solid month before winter break and time seemed to be creeping by slower and slower with each passing day.
The teen glanced out the window once more, glazed expression, when he registered a person standing by himself in the snow. Tao set the book he was holding down, inching closer as his fingers tentatively touching the cold panes of glass, as he stared at the scene before him. A student, tall in stature, with dirty blonde hair stood in the quad, eyes closed, head tilted upwards towards the sky. It was normal for students to enjoy the beautiful winter surroundings however what made Tao double take was that the student was oriental. Tao swallowed, the only other students he’d run into were from Thailand or Malaysia. This student was undoubtedly Chinese.
Tao did not even process what he was doing until he’d darted from his spot and was met with the cold air as he ran out into the snow. All the dark-haired teen could think about was confirming that this boy was in fact also Chinese and that Tao’s poor mind wasn’t playing tricks on him. His university was not a very big one so Tao knew all of the minority students and he’d never seen this student before.
Tao rounded the pillar and stopped just short of entering the quad. At this close of a range there was no mistaking it, this student was what Tao suspected. Tao watched the boy, taking in the crease to his almond-shaped eyes, the dark roots peeking out through his dyed blonde hair, the jade bracelet that hung loosely on the boy’s wrist. He was tall, taller than Tao, pale in complexion, fashionably dressed in an orange sweater and mustard yellow jacket. Tao suddenly became all too aware of his own appearance, what with his old hand-me-down black jacket and his no-name jeans. This other student seemed so cool and composed. Tao was instantly intimated. The dark-haired teen turned to leave, instantly realizing how strange it would be for him to simply approach this other student, when his shoes crunched loudly in the snow.
The blonde student quickly spun around, a startled expressing on his face, as his sought out an embarrassed Tao trying to hide behind one of the building’s pillars. Tao’s face burned, as the other student simply stared at him confused, and Tao cleared his throat.
“Um…” Tao searched for the words in Swedish in his head, “Hello. I’m sorry. I was just… I thought I’d left my gloves out here. I didn’t know that someone was using this area.”
“It’s a public area. I have no control who can enter and who cannot.” The taller teen smirked and Tao’s face burned even redder.
“Sorry.” Tao muttered, turning to leave. “Okay, I’ll be taking my leave now.”
“Where are you from?” It Tao a moment to registered that the other had just spoken to him in Mandarin.
“Beijing.” Tao smiled, when the other teen sent him a soft knowing smile. “What about you?”
“Guangzhou. Are you a first year?” The teen moved closer and Tao met him halfway. Hearing Mandarin was like music to his ears and judging from the other teen’s face, the blonde felt the same.
“Yeah. I’m Huang Zi Tao. I live in south quad.” Tao stuck his hand out for a handshake and the blonde laughed.
“Have you really forgotten our ways already? Huang Zi Tao, I am Wu Yi Fan but I go by Kris.” The blonde dropped into a bow.
“Oh!” Tao blushed dropping into a bow as well. However, Kris was just starting to stand up when Tao ducked down. The two knocked heads before staggering backwards away from each other, groaning in pain.
“I-I’m sorry!” Tao apologized frantically dropping into a bow once more and Kris backed up.
“Whoa! Maybe it’s best if we forget about our traditions while here.” Kris held up his hand in mock fear.
Tao’s face was on fire at this point. He was not one to normally blush but being made a fool in front of someone who clearly understood Tao’s background made the teen nervous. Kris was so cool and composed, like a manga character what with his long legs, passionate eyes, and laid-back manner. The taller teen had an aura of confidence to him while Tao felt like an awkward duckling talking to someone so well composed. The two might have come from the same country, but Tao could already tell that they were worlds different.
“Right then.” Tao swallowed as his skin burned with embarrassment. “It was nice meeting you. I have to return to my job at the library now.”
“Wait a minute,” Kris reached out and grabbed the smaller boy’s arm not letting him leave, “You’re going to just dart off like that? You were sneaking behind that pillar with the intention of trying to talk to me, weren’t you?”
Tao’s head shot up as he met the smirking face of the blonde. Kris knew. He had seen right through Tao’s pathetic lie of losing his glove and called teen right out on his somewhat stalkerish behavior.
“L-let go of me!” Tao shook his arm free and looked away in shame. “I already told you, I was looking for my gloves.”
“Sure you were.” Kris grinned before leaning in to rest a large hand on Tao’s shoulder, the smaller boy shrank under the elder’s touch and winced slightly, “Well it was nice meeting another Chinese here. If you ever want someone to speak Mandarin with, I go to the library on Thursdays.”
“Hmm.” Tao refused to meet Kris’s cocky grin and shrugged the other’s hold off him. “See you around campus.”
It was that Thursday that Tao saw the blonde-haired teen again.
Kris was sitting alone in one of the studying carols in the library, dressed smartly in a blue plaid shirt and glasses, as he hunched over his textbooks. Tao was surprised to see the other student again so quickly. He’d made an idiot of himself the time meeting Kris, looking like some desperate nerd that was desperate for friends and Tao turned away quickly.
The teen inched further down the aisle he was stacking books in and peered between the shelves to where Kris was. If only he could stay hidden like this, then Tao wouldn’t have to awkwardly encounter Kris again. Tao absolutely hated awkward situations and he cursed that out of all libraries on campus, Kris had to study in this one. Well then again, Tao did work in the main library but that piece of information seemed to escape the teen at the moment.
“Damn bastard.” Tao muttered, as he crouched lower in the aisle. “Why does he have to be here?”
Tao snuck a peek back at where Kris was sitting and frowned, quietly setting back to his work and making sure to avoid the other student for the duration of his shift.
It was the third Thursday that Kris was studying in the library that Tao finally realized this was a routine of Kris’s.
Tao cursed his bad luck and sneakily moved between the rows. The tiny cart of books had squeaky wheels that made a lot of noise but Tao moved slowly enough, they were pretty quite. Steadily Tao crept along, constantly craning his head back in the direction of where Kris was studying, as he left the security of his aisle to cross the library to access the shelves on the other side. There would be a five second span in which Tao would be totally exposed and the teen prayed that Kris would not pick that moment to look up.
“Okay.” Tao whispered, looking back towards Kris once more. The blonde totally immersed in his work and Tao braced himself.
Then the teen quickly pushed his little cart and darted for the rows opposite of him. A few people studying at various chairs looked up at the squeaking cart and Tao bit his lip, determinedly fast-walking to safety the books provided. When the teen was hidden from sight once more, Tao released a big sigh. He glanced back to Kris’s carol once more to make sure he hadn’t looked up only to see that the seat was completely empty. Tao froze.
“Have you been avoiding me?” A voice spoke in Mandarin from behind Tao.
The teen jumped, whirling around to see Kris standing at the end of the row, casually leaning against the bookshelf, eyes narrowed into a glare. The blonde was wearing a tight white button-down shirt today and navy slim-leg pants. The outfit was extremely flattering for the tall teen and Tao envied how cool Kris always was in appearance.
“Kris! Oh I didn’t see you there.” Tao’s smile twitched as he began stacking books at random, hoping desperately that Kris would just walk away.
“I asked you a question. Tao, have you been avoiding me?” Kris walked up to the dark-haired teen and took the book Tao had been holding from his hands.
“Kris,” Tao frowned, “Let me do my job.”
“Nuh uh.” Kris held the book high above his head and Tao looked to the other with wide eyes, “Answer my question and then I will return your book.”
“Of course I haven’t been avoiding you. That’s preposterous! I haven’t seen you until just now, so how could I be avoiding you?” Tao huffed.
“I come here every Thursday and you never even stop by to say hello. Instead I see you sneaking around the stacks like some rodent, thinking I haven’t seen you when in reality your cart is so damn loud it’s impossible not to notice you.” Kris returned Tao his book and fixed the other with a stern look.
“O-oh.” Tao blushed, “Well I didn’t know you wanted me to say hi. I saw how busy you were studying and figured it was best to just leave you alone.”
Kris hummed and suddenly leaned in closer to Tao. The movement caught Tao off guard and he dropped his book, back tensing as Kris peered closely at him.
“You’re a real weirdo, you know that? I figured you’d want to hang out since I’m Chinese too but you’ve just been avoiding me. What’s up with that? Did I offend you or something? Or do you simply think that because you’re from Beijing, you’re too cool to hang out with someone like me?” Kris’s voice held a dangerous tone to it and Tao blinked slowly at the other teen.
“What?” Tao blurted, “That’s what you think?”
“Well, you haven’t been talking to me so what am I supposed to assume?”
“I haven’t been talking to you because… because well you see…” Tao tried to figure out the best way to word it. Because Kris was cool and he wasn’t? Because Tao expected Kris to make fun of him if they ever met again?
“Yeah?” Kris leaned in a bit closer and Tao squeaked.
“I didn’t talk with you because you’re so cool and I didn’t know how to approach you. I’m extremely introverted. There, are you happy now?” Tao backed away from Kris and picked up his book from the ground.
“That’s it? That’s the reason?” Kris asked in disbelief.
“Yeah. Just… it would probably be best if you just left.” Tao set back to stacking his books and Kris stood there watching him.
“You’re a strange one, Huang Zi Tao.” Kris laughed, hand reaching out and ruffling Tao’s hair.
“H-hey!” Tao blushed, hands hanging uselessly at his side, mouth opening in shock, as Kris smiled kindly at him.
“Well don’t be so shy next time. Come over and say hi to me when you see me.” Kris switched back to Swedish and Tao grumbled.
“Yeah whatever. Let me do my job.” Tao returned in Swedish as well. Kris sent Tao a lazy smile before setting off for his studying area.
Tao turned back towards the bookcase and mentally swore. What was that warm feeling that entered Tao’s stomach when Kris had touched his hair like that? Why did the dark-haired teen’s heart beat so fast when Kris had smiled at him like that?
It was a strange feeling that left Tao feeling uneasy.
Tao was just getting off work at the library late Friday night when he heard Kris’s voice call out to him.
“Hey Tao!” Tao turned to see Kris walking across the quad to him, “Hey!”
“Hi.” Tao returned awkwardly. The teen had taken to greeting Kris whenever he saw on Thursdays. It was nothing much, Tao would simply say hi when he passed Kris and Kris would send him that heart-stopping smile and say hey in response. Their interactions did not go beyond that so Tao found it rather odd when Kris ran up to join him.
“You just getting off work?” Kris’s nose was red from the cold and Tao tugged his scarf tighter around his neck.
“Yeah. I was going to go get dinner now.” Tao looked down at his toes. Kris was standing so closely to the dark-haired teen and Tao was hyperaware of it.
“Oh hey! I just got out of a biology lab so I haven’t eaten yet either. Where were you going to eat? The main cafeteria?” Kris blew on his hands and rubbed them together.
“Yeah I was just headed there now.” Tao wondered where Kris was going with all of this.
“Well then I’ll walk with you there!” Kris grinned and Tao squinted at the taller boy.
“Okay then.” Tao hitched his backpack higher over his shoulder and set off towards the cafeteria.
“So how are your Fridays? You always work at the library?” Kris filled the silence between them when Tao didn’t speak for a few seconds.
“Um yeah. I work Mondays, Thursdays, and Fridays. I get out of classes at two so it’s no big deal.” Tao sighed. He despised small talk. It was simply an excuse to fill the silence of an awkward situation and Tao wondered why Kris even bothered.
“I have bio labs every Friday until six. I wish I got out a two. That would be nice.” Kris sighed wistfully.
“I get out at seven on Tuesdays due to my finance class.” Tao muttered and Kris raised his eyebrows.
“Alright then.” Kris nodded and looked ahead blankly.
“Look Kris, what do you want? Why do you keep talking to me?” Tao winced and snuck a glance at the taller teen.
“Do you not like me talking to you?” Kris frowned.
“No, I don’t mind it. But I’m curious as to why you even bother.”
“Because I’m trying to figure you out.” Kris replied simply and Tao inhaled.
“What?” The dark-haired teen stopped and looked to the other in confusion.
“I said, I’m trying to figure you out. You’re different than other people I’ve met. I want to get to know you better.” Kris grinned and Tao barked out a laugh.
“Different than other people you’ve met? I’m not all that special.” Tao laughed again as the pair entered the cafeteria.
“Okay so tell me about you then.” Kris resumed their conversation when both were seated at a booth.
“You can’t just ask people that.” Tao wrinkled his nose and Kris watched him strangely. “What?”
“Nothing.” Kris looked away quickly and Tao shifted uneasily.
“So anyways,” Kris cleared his throat, “I know that you are from Beijing. What about your family?”
“So we’re actually doing this then?” Tao groaned, setting down his burger. “I have a mother and a father. No siblings, I’m an only child. What about you?”
“I have a sister but that’s it. Oh! And obviously and mother and father as well.” Kris replied. “What about secondary school? Did you attend in Beijing?”
“I’ve been going to school in Europe since I was thirteen. I went to the Stockholm International School.”
“Since you were thirteen? Why?” Kris leaned across the table interested.
“No real reason.”
“No come on, there’s got to be a reason! You don’t just move to Europe from China randomly! What’s your story?”
“It’s really nothing exciting, Kris.” Tao narrowed his eyes.
“I think it’s pretty exciting to move to a different country at such a young age! So come on, tell me!”
Tao bit his lip. Here was where Kris learned about the messed up part of his life.
“My parents are divorced. My father lives and works in Beijing. My mother remarried a Swedish man so we moved here. I didn’t want to stick around when my mother played house with her new husband, so I became a boarding student at the international school. I haven’t lived at home since.”
“Oh…Tao…” Kris bit his lip and Tao smiled bitterly.
“You don’t have to say that you’re sorry. I’m really tired of hearing that from people. I’m happy being independent. I don’t mind.” The dark-haired teen clasped his hands together.
Kris sighed heavily, mind slowly starting to piece together Tao’s strange behavior. Kris slowly grasped one of Tao’s hands in his and rubbed his thumb reassuringly across the boy’s knuckles. The dark-haired boy started and retracted his hand quickly.
“Sorry.” Kris said softly and Tao nodded, face blushing.
“I miss Beijing. I don’t go back to visit that often but I still consider it home. I didn’t even want to move here but I had to since my mother and all.” Tao returned just as softly.
“It must be hard. Is that why you wanted to talk with me when you saw me? You probably haven’t had that many people to speak Mandarin with here.” Kris asked as Tao scooted back out of his chair and picked up his tray. “Tao?”
“I’m not hungry anymore.” Tao said, heading off towards the clearing section. Kris looked down to own unfinished meal and cursed, gathering up his tray, and hurrying off after the teen.
“Hey Tao,” Kris said as Tao disposed of his food, “Tao, I’m sorry if I upset you.”
“It’s not that.” Tao quipped and Kris tried to keep at pace with the boy. The pair exited the cafeteria and Tao tugged his scarf close once again.
“I’m heading back to my dorm.” Tao smiled weakly, “I’ll see you on Thursday.”
“Hey Tao.” Kris frowned when the teen turned to leave, “Tao. Tao!”
Kris reached out and spun the other around, freezing up when he saw that Tao had tears in his eyes.
“Tao.” Kris said softly, sorrowfully, and Tao sniffed against the brimming water in his eyes.
“I’m sorry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.” Tao laughed and furiously wiped his tears away. “It must be because I’m tired. I apologize that you have to see me like this.”
“Tao, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you.” Kris held firm when Tao tried to walk away again.
“I already told you,” Tao sniffed once more, “It wasn’t you. I’m fine. Just let go.”
“Tao, I’m sorry.”
“Don’t say that.” Tao laughed against his tears, “You didn’t do anything. Now let go of me.”
“I did do something. I made you cry!” Kris said exasperated and Tao struggled against his hold.
“No you didn’t. I’m crying because I’m tired and this whole week just caught up with me. Now let go.”
“No.” Kris gripped the boy tighter and tugged him closer. “Come here.”
“Huh?” Before Tao knew it, he was being pulled into Kris’s arms for a hug.
The teen froze, eyes wide, as Kris’s frame enveloped his and held him tight. One of Kris’s arms was wrapped around the dark-haired teen’s waist while the other came up to rest on the top of Tao’s head to pull him to Kris’s chest.
“Kris.” Tao whispered. He could feel the blonde’s warmth surrounding him, Kris’s large reassuring hand resting softly on his head, as the elder curled around the younger.
“I’m sorry to bring up painful subjects. I just wanted to get to know you better. I shouldn’t have been so pushy with you.” Kris spoke lowly against Tao’s ear and the teen blinked away his tears.
“K-Kris.” Tao brought trembling hands up to push away the other’s frame but Kris wouldn’t let him.
“I’m here for you. We’re friends, Tao. I want us to be friends. Don’t push me away.” Kris said and Tao sobbed once more.
“Okay?” Kris asked, rubbing his hand on Tao’s back.
“Okay.” Tao trembled and buried his face into Kris’s chest. Ears burning with shame but Tao was too broken down to really care at this point.
Thursday was quickly becoming Tao’s favorite day of the week.
Thursdays meant that Tao got to see Kris and seeing Kris always brightened the teen’s day. Tao didn’t know when it had happened but he looked forwards to Thursdays and Fridays now. The pair got dinner together every Friday now and were quickly learning more and more about each other with each day.
“Hey you.” Tao smiled, resting his chin on the study carol. Kris looked up from his work and sent the boy that grin that always made Tao’s heart do weird flutters.
“Hey yourself. You getting bored from your boring job already? Come to bug the studious students?” Kris teased and Tao grinned.
“It’s not that boring. Besides, what studious students? I don’t see any studying going on here.”
“I was studying before you got here.”
“Kris, you have QQ open on your phone.” Tao laughed, pointing to the other’s phone where it lay scattered amongst his textbooks.
“Okay you caught me.” Kris tweaked Tao’s nose and the teen squeaked, hands flying over his nose to protect it.
“Kris.” Tao whined, “Don’t do that.”
“Aw don’t be such a baby.” Kris grinned.
“Don’t be so mean.”
“I’m not being mean. When am I ever mean to you?” Kris poked Tao’s cheek and the teen backed up, face slowly flushing.
“You always turn so red. You’re too easy.” Kris laughed and Tao frowned.
“I have to get back to work now.” Tao sniffed and Kris laughed, grabbing the teen by the shirt before he could go.
“Do you have any tests tomorrow?”
“Huh? No.”
“I was wondering if you wanted to chill and watch a movie tonight. I don’t have anything going on.” Tao’s heart leapt. It wasn’t a date, Kris’s tone made that very clear, it was simply watching movies like good friends, but Tao couldn’t help be happy at the prospect of just Kris and him watching a film together.
“Yeah I’d like that.” Tao smiled and Kris released his shirt.
“Okay. I’ll text you after dinner, okay?”
“Alright then.” Tao nodded before letting Kris resume his studying.
Then the teen waddled off, grinning from ear to ear. Tao happily set about stacking books for the rest of his shift.
It was the first week of December that Tao began dreaming of Kris.
The pair had been consistently hanging out everyday together for the past few weeks. Tao met Kris after his morning classes and Kris ran across campus to see Tao when he got off his job at the library. It was a heck of a trek and Tao offered to simply meet Kris at his dorm but Kris liked walking and talking with the teen. Thursdays were still the pair’s designated library day, Tao would occasionally walk the carol that Kris was studying in and chat with the other student quietly.
They ate most of their breakfasts and dinners together, they studied together on Sundays, they walked with each other before splitting up for classes, and they got mail together, as the pair was basically strapped at the hip. Kris had introduced Tao to his circle of friends and Tao was grateful for that. The dark-haired teen had not bothered making any friends of his own and Kris’s were accepting enough of the newest member to their group.
Kris was like a blessing from above. He provided Tao with company, made the teen laugh, helped ease the ache for home, and had quickly become the closest friend that Tao ever had. Kris was handsome, popular with the other students regardless of the language barrier, kind, and charismatic. It seemed that no matter they went on campus, people always stopped to greet the blonde student or ask him if he was going to some event. He was the most perfect person Tao had even known and the teen had developed a sort of crush on the elder.
Tao dreamt silly nonsensical things like dreams about them dating or dreams about them doing romantic things like picnicking together. There was no harm in that. But sometimes, Tao’s dreams would become more sexual in nature and it was after those that Tao found it difficult to face Kris the next day.
Kris was straight. That was pretty easy to figure out and Tao felt dirty for dreaming about his friend in such a way. Tao tried to fight his feelings, he really did, but Kris just had a way of melting his heart every time they interacted. Kris knew all the right things to say, all the right things to do, to affect Tao and leave the teen a blushing mess like a schoolgirl’s crush.
Tao had even touched himself once, but only once, in the shower to the thought of Kris. The dark-haired student had never come so hard in his life but he’d felt immense guilt afterwards. Tao hadn’t talked to Kris at all that next day. Kris had been concerned that he’d done something and did his best to apologize to Tao, which resulted in Tao having to get over his embarrassment and quickly make up with the elder.
Hanging out with Kris was pure bliss for Tao and as each day passed, his feelings for the blonde grew deeper and deeper. Surely there was no one as perfect as Kris.
Tao only lamented in the fact that his affections would never be returned.
“I’m just gonna go rinse off okay?” Kris asked, tossing his backpack down onto the floor. “You can just chill for a few. My roommate won’t be back until later so it’s no big deal.”
“Oh. Okay.” Tao smiled softly, sinking down onto Kris’s bed as the elder stalked around the room gathering his necessities for the shower.
Tao was only mildly sweaty but Kris’s neck and back were soaked. It was that kind of nasty sweat one acquires when exercising outdoors in cold weather climates. The kind where the cold winter air kept one’s skin chilled but a hot sweat broke beneath one’s clothes. It was the easiest way to get hypothermia and Kris wanted to warm up his body quickly.
“I won’t be long.” Kris said, starting to peel off his shirt from his sweaty body and Tao’s eyes widened.
A long expanse of toned pale skin was revealed, muscles flexing to remove the article of clothing, a dark treasure trail leading down between the cut lines of Kris’s Adonis belt. Tao sat absolutely still, eyes glued to the other’s form, while Kris proceeded to remove his clothing totally unaware. He finally stopped when his long legs kicked themselves out of his pants, underwear remaining on much to Tao’s relief and disappointment, before he sent the dark-haired teen a goofy wink and disappeared into the bathroom.
“Oh my god.” Tao whispered, as the shower spray turned on and Kris’s muffled singing voice began drifting through the door.
Kris, Kris in all of his naked glory, with his toned body and muscled form, was entirely naked, separated only by the width of a door. Tao could hear the water splashing off of Kris’s body as he rotated in the shower and the teen’s face burned bright red. It was physical attraction, there was no doubt in that, and Tao closed his eyes breathing heavily.
Kris’s bed was a tangled mess of black sheets and haphazardly thrown pillows. A crumpled pair of boxers and a large t-shirt with some American football team lay discarded at the end of the bed. Tao’s skin was starting to prick as the dark-haired teen inhaled the scent of Kris’s scent filling the room but mostly coming so strongly from the sheets. Tao stared at the boy’s pillow for a moment and then glanced back to the closed bathroom door. That scent, that strong musty scent, which was a combination of cologne and Kris’s natural smell, was surrounding Tao and driving him crazy. It was that scent that Tao smelt when Kris would jokingly wrap his around the shorter teen when they walked. It was the same scent that made Tao’s knees weak when they ducked their heads together while studying. It was that smell that Tao found himself longing to smell once more when the pair was separated in their individual classes during the day. It was the scent that Tao equated with Kris and Tao’s body began reacting no matter how much he wished it wouldn’t.
“Fuck.” Tao whispered, heart pumping in his ears as he looked to the bathroom once more. Tao had ‘one of those’ dreams last night about Kris and this situation was not helping. The teen had already been half-hard since seeing Kris earlier in the day, body reacting when Kris’s had slung an arm around Tao’s shoulder when they were walking.
Kris’s blissfully unaware voice continued singing softly and Tao bit his lip making his decision. Tao had time. Kris had just gotten into the shower. Tao still had time. The teen quickly shoved his hands down into his pants before shoving his face into Kris’s pillow.
“Ugh.” Tao moaned softly, fingers kneading his taut flesh as he began working up and down his shaft.
The teen hadn’t jacked off in awhile and he was oversensitive, body pricking with pleasure from every touch. Tao started off wrapping his fingers around his base before dragging his hand up, twisting his wrist, and coming back down. The movement slightly bent his cock uncomfortably but it brought pleasure as well. Tao repeated this motion over and over again a few times and while it was starting to make him leak, he knew that it would not be enough to bring him to completion. The smell of Kris surrounded him and Tao let his imagination wander. The teen envisioned that it was Kris touching him and the thought made the teen’s member jump.
“Oh yes.” Tao groaned into the pillow, ears picking up Kris’s low voice still humming away in the shower. Tao was on sensory overload, not only was he provided with Kris’s scent but audio as well.
Tao’s left hand moved down to pet the area behind the teen’s ball sack and began to stroke at the soft but firm skin there. He teased himself, eyes squeezed shut tightly, mouth agape, as his index finger aggressively petted that area over and over again. Tao moaned pathetically, trying in vain to stifle all of his sounds for fear of Kris being able to hear him over the spray of the shower. Meanwhile Tao’s right hand worked furiously, a loose grip around himself and he shifted his skin up and down as he fisted his cock. Precum was already gathering at the head, milky white fluid slowly dripping down onto Tao’s hand, and the teen mewled.
It felt so good. His fingers chilled from the cold outside, quickly pumping up and down the hot flesh of his cock. The boy was completely hairless down there, soft waxed skin kissing Tao’s rough knuckles as he worked himself in frenzy. Tao thought of Kris’s broad shoulders, what it would feel like to grasp those as the older teen’s large hands would grasp behind Tao’s thighs. He thought of what it would feel like to run his hands down Kris’s naked front, to trace the blonde’s muscles stomach and arms. He thought of how Kris’s hot erratic breath would feel against his arched neck as the taller man would drive in between the teen’s thighs.
The last image was enough to bring Tao teetering at that peak and the dark-haired boy coughed, eyes blinking open, mouth falling open, as he began to feel his orgasm approach. Kris’s scent was all around him and Tao’s hips bucked weakly, precum messily covering his hand, as his balls tightened. Tao could feel it. He was almost there. As Tao slowly began to lose it, he did not hear the shower spray turn off.
“Oh yes.” Tao mewled, body losing total control as he began to buck violently into the tight cavern that his hand provided, “Oh yes. God yes. Kris. Oh please! Ugh!”
Then suddenly Tao was coming, hand moving sloppily up and down his shaft, as thick white ropes of cum splattered out across his hand and thighs. The teen struggled for breath, toes curling, body singing, hips arching up off of the bed, as Tao came hard.
“Tao, sorry to keep you waiting. It was just so damn cold and-” The bathroom door opened before Tao could even cover himself.
“Ah! Shit!” Tao turned away, struggling to pull his pants.
Kris stood in the doorway, clad in nothing but a towel, droplets of water sliding down his skin, as he stared mouth agape at Tao sprawled out on his bed. Kris’s back stiffened, eyes absorbing the sight that was Tao’s cum-splattered thighs, the teen’s flush faced, the way his tousled hair stuck to his sweaty forehead, to how heavily Tao was breathing. There was no question in Kris’s mind what Tao had been doing in his bed.
“T-Tao. What the fuck?” Kris barked although he did not even realized he’d raised his voice. Tao tensed, face burning in shame, as he belted his jeans, and waited to be struck. Surely Kris would hit him. What Tao had just done was disgusting. It was an invasion of privacy and it was disgusting to think about: two men together? There was something surely wrong with Tao.
Tao said nothing, head hanging as he waited to be beat. He could hear Kris shifting closer and the dark-haired teen jumped when Kris slammed his hand against the wall, leaning in close to stare down the younger. Kris was in such close proximity to Tao now, his scent fresh, much stronger than that of the sheets Tao has just jacked off in, and Tao’s body was already starting to react again. The teen winced, both from shock at Kris’s violent action but also as his member stirred in his soiled underpants. There was still cum on Tao’s hand and he subtly sat on it.
“Tao.” Kris said, voice all too close to the teen’s ear and Tao squeezed his eyes shut. “Tao say something. Explain this.”
Tao again said nothing and continued to keep his eyes closed. The two stayed like this for a few seconds before Kris scoffed, hand reaching out and roughly gripping Tao’s jaw, forcing the teen to face him.
“Open your eyes.” Kris’s voice wavered and Tao’s eyes shot open.
“K-Kris.” The younger’s voice trembled, eyes searching the other’s face frantically trying to assess the other’s reaction.
“Tao what were you just doing?” Kris spoke through gritted teeth. He looked pained and Tao felt awful. Of course Kris probably now hated him, Kris was probably disgusted with Tao and his actions.
“I-I…” Words failed Tao and he found that he could not speak, wishing to simply disappear in that moment. Kris’s grip tightened and Tao cried out softly. Then the blonde was leaning closer, eyes pinning Tao, as he brought their faces all too close for Tao’s liking.
“Are you a homo?” Kris breathed.
There it was. The word ‘homo’ that made Tao’s skin sting unpleasantly. There was no doubt that Kris was disgusted with him. Internal panic overtook the dark-haired teen and Tao slapped Kris’s hand away. Then the teen rose to his feet, pushing past a surprised Kris, as he darted out the door.
“Tao!” Tao heard Kris call after him but all Tao could think about was running away form this embarrassing situation. The teen skidded down the hallway and darted from the dormitory, not even caring that he’d left his coat in Kris’s room as the cold winter winds greeted him.
Tao’s entire body was on fire, face burning in shame and jaw tingling from where Kris had gripped him too roughly. He’d gone and ruined it. Tao had let his stupid crush get in the way of the one true friendship that he had and it hurt so badly. Kris would most likely never talk to Tao again. It was all over.
“It wasn’t worth it.” Tao sobbed, breaking into tears as he ran for his dorm.
“Goddammit it wasn’t worth it.”
Part 2