so lets see college has been quite an experience. I am basically the only girl in both of my classes and man i like it but at the same time it's crazy. No i don't want to hear about how great you are in bed, and no i don't want to hear about your masturbation experiences. It's like should i go on about how periods suck and how my breasts ache today ( Read more... )

this morning i was in such a wonderful mood. Emphasis on the was. Basically i haven't spoken to my mom in over a week and that in itself is depressing. Our relationship is basically nada. You know i have faced alot of crap in my life and have had to make myself be strong. I can't take it anymore. If i sit back and take a look at my life i notice a ( Read more... )

you know what. I have come to a realization that in order to upbuild people you must first upbuild yourself. That you can't dwell on the past because it pulls you down. Live life to the full? Maybe..Anyway i have decided that it is okay to let go emotionally for right now. if I do this i find that nothing matters. that i am completely apathetic to ( Read more... )

Today I was very hyper at school. Steven said I looked emo with me new hair. I'm suppose to hang out with abby on wednesday but I don't know. I sat in the rain today because I was depressed and the rain makes me fade away kind of. well gotta go my mom is comming.

Okay so today wasn't too bad. We did a lot on our video and it was quite fun actually. I kind of don't know what to do on camera but I worked on what the girls were telling me to do. I wonder what our next video project will be? Yesterday I took pictures of myself for my my space if I ever can get back on. I wonder what we all will look like 20 ( Read more... )

Yesterday lets just say was horrible. My mom totally told my grandma that I have been disrespectful and stuff. Well you know how I missed the bus well my sister told my mom. And I was all upset so I ended up telling my mom it was non of her business because I handled it. Well very bad idea. So now my mother thinks that I feel that nothing in my ( Read more... )

Today I did my hair put on some make up, wore my favorite shirt and felt pretty hot! Even if I am not I don't care! Any way I had a ditz moment this morning and broke one of the cameras at CACC. Well I am glad to say that it can be fixed. My video sux but I don't care. I feel wonderful to day!

This morning on the way to school my mother gave me the silent treatment. IT was because last night we were descussing how I failed my econ and am now going to have to take it over. Well my mother was not pleased at all and I am not saying she doesn't have the right to be. But she got very angry and in front of my grandma. Well grandma chewed her ( Read more... )

Today was a bad day. Everyone thinks that I am this happy go lucky kind of girl with no problems. Well world I would like to say that I am not that special. I have alot of things I am dealing with. So many at this point that I don't think I should say. I would just like to add that it isn't easy for me to wake up every day. Some days I can put on ( Read more... )

Oh I had such a lucky day today. First my sister decided not to tell mom about the bus! Yeah! But the most important thing is is that I finally got the guts to talk to Chris trubeck. Sorry I spelled his name wrong! Anyway so I had been told that he is weird, that he is full of himself, and that he is a pathalogical lier. Well all you who said that ( Read more... )