dream (joy to dancing about living in old room) / my old room in my bioparents' GA house

[belenen]

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[acid_burns]

And when it RAINED??? There was nothing more beautiful.

♥!

[belenen]

*hugs!*

[dragonwine]

I'm assuming you didn't get along with your biofamily. Neither have I. We currently don't speak at all. How has the experience shaped you?

[belenen]

I definitely did not get along when I had to live with them. I get along with my biomom much better now that ze is not trying to change me, but I still have issues with zir because ze is still with my biofather, who is abusive. I do not like or get along with my biofather because of how ze mistreats people, especially my lil sis who is only 14. My biobrother and I aren't really in contact, but we've never been friends

[dragonwine]

Thank you for answering, Bella. I, like you, had a major disconnection with the majority of my family after coming out and the distance hasn't closed since then. So in a lot of respects I understand you and I admire your ability to recognize that the family you're born into doesn't necessarily have to be your true family. It took Megan to show me that because I would suffer greatly trying to adhere to the opinions and criticisms of my own biofamily and felt awful for it.

I'm so glad you're able to maintain a strong connection with your sister. I know it's never easy to finally realize that your blood family isn't everything. You can create your own family and surround yourself with people who appreciate your self-worth. I imagine that from this pain you've grown and matured in endless ways. I admire you.

♥

[sabr]

Mimosa's are one of my absolute favorite trees. Those and all the willows :)

I yearn for a sanctuary, but I haven't found it yet.

[belenen]

Black willow is my favorite ♥ then Mimosa, live oak, sycamore, and sassafras.

I hope you find it soon!

[sabr]

I think my all-time favorite is the weeping cherry but I'm also really fond of japanese maples and corkscrew willows. And not a tree, but of course my orchids.

[melissarose8585]

There's something about your room when you're at that stage. I look back at my old room and think that it needed so much, but it represents so many dreams, fantasies, memories...a time when I was much younger and carefree. I totally understand your feeling.

[belenen]

I think for me, it was mostly about having such a giant window/door into the woods. The other stuff played a large part but... having the woods practically in my room was just heaven for me!

[phydeau]

If I didn't live a few hundred miles away, I'd share the rent. I could use some woods, myself.

[belenen]

oh, that would be AWESOME! dammit, why does everyone have to be so far away!